Please tell me anything but "I told you so!"
Ewwww
EW
eewwww, I can't believe I thought I loved someone so fucking evil!
Why?
Why though?
I'm so fucking nice to her!?!?!??!
Ewwwwwww!
So she told me to go to her house and I said okay, and I ran to the bus stop only to see it pass right by as I was nearing it!
so I ran all the way to the one 2 blocks down, and I said, okay, I'll just wait for the 1st one I took, because it should be coming!
Sure enough...
After an hour...
I just went to some other stop going the LONG way to her house...
and it as okay, I guess...
I eventually go to her house and you know what she did???
Nothing!
But I was Happy!
I saw her!
How fun!
then after a while of hangingout, the phone rings, and it's her boyfriend(which she doesn't know that I knew this, so kept referring to him as her friend..)
well, she was getting ready sort of, and he eventually came knocking on the window, and she said she'll be back...
SHE SAID SHE'LL BE BACK AT 12am, and she did come back....
At 4 30am!
she asked me what was wrong, and there was so much wrong!
Just last Christmas I told her I loved her, gave her a rose, made her a dinosaur out of paper, and handed her a picture of me adorned with Hello Kitty stickers!
and she has that kind of nerve to ask me what was wrong, and I was like, "I wanna tell you but I can't tell you because you won't understand!"
Then she was like, tell me!
In Bed with me, telling me to tell her like we have something, like she really cares...
or maybe I was just over emphasizing the situation...
and i couldn't, I didn't want to do the lil runaround we did before...
I know we're not dating anymore because she "moved on...."
she just wanted me to go over and hangout at 10 at night, by ourselves, and I was sleeping over, but yeah, she moved on...
And you know what?
with her I'm not even fun!
I'm just quiet, laughing to myself because I dont know what to say, I get nervous!
I've known her for almost a year and I still get nervous!
Well, she was telling me to tell her, and I wanted to, and someone knocked on her door that led to her sisters room and she told me he was staying over too...
and she'll be back, and she left...
and I was just laying there, and she came back at 5 00 and told me she'd be back in a little while because she wanted to talk to me, and I was like ohhhhkay...
In my mind, I was like, "What're they doing in her sisters room!?" because her sister wasn't there, and I was kind of queasy, maybe, I was worrying too much because i soon developed a headache and she came back, got her blankets and went to sleep on the floor...
and I was like, "Oh....well, I guess we won't be talking...."
Then after 15 minutes she finally says something...
"What're you doing?"
and I say what?
and she says "Brian, what are you doing??"
and I look and there he is wanting to lay with sondra...
I really felt sick to my stomach...
That's not something you do to someone...
Especially someone that loves you...
I was crushed...
and in the morning, when I wake up, she asks me if I'm mad, and I say no...
because I'm not...
I feel no anger for this...
I feel crushed...
I didn't sleep till 6 in the morning last night just to wait for her, just to wait for her in considerate self to fulfill her mission of crushing my heart with so much sorrow that it doesn't become a heart...
just a core, like the earths core, just there, just keeping me alive...
just...IDK!!!
I hate it...
Why did you call me to hangout...
Why do you want to hurt me!?