the color white
ive been sleeping more. this isnt because im a happier person. at least i have the smashing pumpkins to allow me to wallow in my own personal pit of sadness, regret, confusion, and depression.
ive got this feeling that if i tried to kill myself, the gun wouldn't fire, just do something cool like blow off my hand.
oh yeah? well ill solve my foot with a smile...straight up your ass.
i know everything will be ok. but living through these emotions doesn't get any easier no-matter how many times i do it.
my dads girlfriend is a fucking moron. her iq must be like 5...on a good day. im honestly surprised shes stayed alive as long as she has. most people that brain-dead usually die young. what an idiot. talking to her is like drilling a hole in your head...its not fun, its annoying, and her retarded thought process makes you feel stupider for being in the same room as her. fucking dumbass. what could my father possibly be thinking. perhaps she has already infected him with her dumbfuck disorder. in which case he isnt thinking at all.
she didnt deserve that verbal bashing, but its true and needed to be said.
ive got this feeling that if i tried to kill myself, the gun wouldn't fire, just do something cool like blow off my hand.
oh yeah? well ill solve my foot with a smile...straight up your ass.
i know everything will be ok. but living through these emotions doesn't get any easier no-matter how many times i do it.
my dads girlfriend is a fucking moron. her iq must be like 5...on a good day. im honestly surprised shes stayed alive as long as she has. most people that brain-dead usually die young. what an idiot. talking to her is like drilling a hole in your head...its not fun, its annoying, and her retarded thought process makes you feel stupider for being in the same room as her. fucking dumbass. what could my father possibly be thinking. perhaps she has already infected him with her dumbfuck disorder. in which case he isnt thinking at all.
she didnt deserve that verbal bashing, but its true and needed to be said.