Regarding Wheelchair Jeremy trains of thought
OH my fucking god I just lost the whole entry I was writing to my FUCKING FUCKER Computer that crashed. I had basically said that I am so fucking bored today especially of video games and I dont even know what I want to do and now I dont know what I even want with my life and I got so bored I cooked my quesadilla on a pan instead of microwaving and it tasted a lot better. Then I meandered into the following story about the boy in the wheelchair:
In english class with heather easterling who I like and who doesnt like me what is wrong with her how can she not like funny smiles and jokes. Then I was thinking how DUMB and slow eyed my class is and then I turned to the boy in the wheelchair and I thought hmm, except for him. Hes in a wheelchair, maybe HE can understand me. And right after that thought I raise my hand to speak in class and say that I found something new, because she had pointed out the three of us who had been in her shakespeare class and had already covered with her what we were covering now. And so I say that I have something that I saw the second time I read, and I was about to say that the characters are allowed to "cheat" in Shakespeare comedies, because they are both "real" people AND do stupid stuff like believe in ridiculous overhearing shows. Well I would have said that but as I opened my mouth out came a big BLARRRRRR and there a fire drill. She said it must have been REALLy brilliant because look what happened, and so we all start to shuffle out, and then I as I am in the hall being passed by the heavy stream of people, I see the boy in the wheelchair sitting against the wall.
And although I have an unspoken rule against talking to people in wheelchairs today I made an exception and said, "hey what are you going to do? Theres no ramp." and he laughed and said I dunno, and I laughed back and said what about the elevator>? He said no they shut it down during drills. And so I ask someone official are you official? and they say no. and so we're like oh fuck! And by now everyone is gone, and he says Ill go to the elevator, and Im like are you sure? and he laughed and said yes, and I say well if it's a real fire IM coming back for you. And he laughed again and I saw him wheel around the corner. Then I turn to go up the stairs and Heather Easterling comes barreling down (she seriously barrels everywhere). And she says Nick have you seen Jeremy!? And I said yeah we were just trying to figure out what to do, and she says where did he go, and I said around the corner, and so we both start speed walking down the hall when around the corner comes the janitor boss and says you gotta get out!!! and she says I have a student in a wheelchair!! And he says we got him now you gotta go!! ANd so we walk back, not saying anything, and its both natural and strange, as we have that working-together understanding, but she seems to be purposefully not talking even though we are side by side. She keeps the relationship professional only Ill tell you that. SHes so serious about it.
And, then, outside, Im listening to my Ipod and leaning against a big potted plant, and I see wheelchair boy, and he says I made it out ok! And does a big funny smile, and then I laugh and smile HUGELY like a big goof, and blush and have to look away.
In english class with heather easterling who I like and who doesnt like me what is wrong with her how can she not like funny smiles and jokes. Then I was thinking how DUMB and slow eyed my class is and then I turned to the boy in the wheelchair and I thought hmm, except for him. Hes in a wheelchair, maybe HE can understand me. And right after that thought I raise my hand to speak in class and say that I found something new, because she had pointed out the three of us who had been in her shakespeare class and had already covered with her what we were covering now. And so I say that I have something that I saw the second time I read, and I was about to say that the characters are allowed to "cheat" in Shakespeare comedies, because they are both "real" people AND do stupid stuff like believe in ridiculous overhearing shows. Well I would have said that but as I opened my mouth out came a big BLARRRRRR and there a fire drill. She said it must have been REALLy brilliant because look what happened, and so we all start to shuffle out, and then I as I am in the hall being passed by the heavy stream of people, I see the boy in the wheelchair sitting against the wall.
And although I have an unspoken rule against talking to people in wheelchairs today I made an exception and said, "hey what are you going to do? Theres no ramp." and he laughed and said I dunno, and I laughed back and said what about the elevator>? He said no they shut it down during drills. And so I ask someone official are you official? and they say no. and so we're like oh fuck! And by now everyone is gone, and he says Ill go to the elevator, and Im like are you sure? and he laughed and said yes, and I say well if it's a real fire IM coming back for you. And he laughed again and I saw him wheel around the corner. Then I turn to go up the stairs and Heather Easterling comes barreling down (she seriously barrels everywhere). And she says Nick have you seen Jeremy!? And I said yeah we were just trying to figure out what to do, and she says where did he go, and I said around the corner, and so we both start speed walking down the hall when around the corner comes the janitor boss and says you gotta get out!!! and she says I have a student in a wheelchair!! And he says we got him now you gotta go!! ANd so we walk back, not saying anything, and its both natural and strange, as we have that working-together understanding, but she seems to be purposefully not talking even though we are side by side. She keeps the relationship professional only Ill tell you that. SHes so serious about it.
And, then, outside, Im listening to my Ipod and leaning against a big potted plant, and I see wheelchair boy, and he says I made it out ok! And does a big funny smile, and then I laugh and smile HUGELY like a big goof, and blush and have to look away.