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I don't know if anyone actually reads this anymore, but i'm writing just to write.
This summer I climbed to the top of a mountain. When I reached the top, I took a large breathe and looked out over the land below and beyond. I didn't feel accomplished, I didn't really feel anything. I just felt the emptiness of not knowing. Places on Earth have come to be what they are. This mountain was at the bottome of the sea floor once, but now is higher in the sky then most skyscrapers. I felt frightend and alone. I wasn't scared of the hight, and I was with a group of so called friends, but what have I become. I let this feeling over take me. I allowed this moment of aquirednessto consume me for about a week. Long enough to push me to find something that I had lost back at home. But maybe the only thing I lost was my sense of comfort that was home. my security that the sun and palm trees bring me. But this place to had come to be what it is, it wasn't always suburbia( or atleast not mega, uber suburbia)
So when will I come to be? Does anyone understand what I mean?
If everything has come to be what it is, and continues to evolve why do I feel like my own personal evolution has stopped a year ago. Can't say too much has grown, traded a few friends and a few foes. I miss the people I use to be close to, if u think this is u, it probably is. But as is life, and we come to be, the people who make us who we are, but i want to become my mountain and I want to be able to look out far. I want people to see me and see what I've become.
This summer I climbed to the top of a mountain. When I reached the top, I took a large breathe and looked out over the land below and beyond. I didn't feel accomplished, I didn't really feel anything. I just felt the emptiness of not knowing. Places on Earth have come to be what they are. This mountain was at the bottome of the sea floor once, but now is higher in the sky then most skyscrapers. I felt frightend and alone. I wasn't scared of the hight, and I was with a group of so called friends, but what have I become. I let this feeling over take me. I allowed this moment of aquirednessto consume me for about a week. Long enough to push me to find something that I had lost back at home. But maybe the only thing I lost was my sense of comfort that was home. my security that the sun and palm trees bring me. But this place to had come to be what it is, it wasn't always suburbia( or atleast not mega, uber suburbia)
So when will I come to be? Does anyone understand what I mean?
If everything has come to be what it is, and continues to evolve why do I feel like my own personal evolution has stopped a year ago. Can't say too much has grown, traded a few friends and a few foes. I miss the people I use to be close to, if u think this is u, it probably is. But as is life, and we come to be, the people who make us who we are, but i want to become my mountain and I want to be able to look out far. I want people to see me and see what I've become.