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[jake1689]

Well i guess i really just dont know what to say. It seems like everyone is so shocked. Remi and I broke up. Its really hard right now because i dont know what to do or think. I've never been more confused in my life. I never wanted to hurt her and i love her so much. It's just that i'm not sure what i want right now. I know i sound like an asshole but i guess that is the simplest way i can put it. i'm so young still and i just want to take some time for myself and live life to the fullest. i dont know what i'm getting at i guess... I'm just really upset, confused, Annoyed, you name it i'm probly it right now. A million mixed emotions running through my head. The thing that hurts me the most i guess is that i hurt Remi. She has been more wonderful to me than anyone ever has. She has showed me love that no one ever has. And i will love her for the rest of my life for it. She has been everything that i've ever wanted in a friend and a girlfriend. She's been there for me when everyone else just said "hey thats your problem, not mine". But i guess the problem right now is that i just dont want to have a girlfriend. But at the same time i feel like such a self-centered fucking asshole just because of the fact that i dont want a girlfriend and i hurt Remi. She deserves so much better than this shit. I'm a failure as a friend, and a boyfriend to her. I guess it's just something that i will have to work out. But ya incase you didnt know about the whole us breaking up thing thats what it's about. So if theres anyone to blame its me cause i'm a fucking asshole and i'm sorry.
Have a better day than me please
Jake Whitman