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so yesterday was blah.
went to figgy's as usual.
drove celo and dan around.
came back.
went home.
went to dance for 2 minutes, then left.
couldnt deal with it.
Then i went to the little parking lot/playground
next to figgies house cuz it was the only parking lot with no people.
just sat for about an hour.
attempting to make myself feel better.
bleh.
went home.
school sucked.
i am fucking retarted.
and i have to find a way to mess up everything i have going for me.
shit just sucks hardcore right now.
i dont know how many more times i can take rejection before i absolutely freak out.
i wish i knew what it was that scares people away.
or whatever it is
just so i could fix it.
i just really need a hug.
anxiety attacks are pretty sweet too by the way.
I almost ran a lady down today because she decided to drive into the middle of the road when i had the right of way, and stop, and yell at me through her windshield.
can anyone tell me when ANYTHING WILL GO RIGHT?
went to figgy's as usual.
drove celo and dan around.
came back.
went home.
went to dance for 2 minutes, then left.
couldnt deal with it.
Then i went to the little parking lot/playground
next to figgies house cuz it was the only parking lot with no people.
just sat for about an hour.
attempting to make myself feel better.
bleh.
went home.
school sucked.
i am fucking retarted.
and i have to find a way to mess up everything i have going for me.
shit just sucks hardcore right now.
i dont know how many more times i can take rejection before i absolutely freak out.
i wish i knew what it was that scares people away.
or whatever it is
just so i could fix it.
i just really need a hug.
anxiety attacks are pretty sweet too by the way.
I almost ran a lady down today because she decided to drive into the middle of the road when i had the right of way, and stop, and yell at me through her windshield.
can anyone tell me when ANYTHING WILL GO RIGHT?