my life is....
i feel like im so ready to leave my dads, no matter how much me and my sisters care about our father it seems hopeless, i try so hard to do all the right things for him and i always come up short, my father will not take care of himself, he wont eat right, he wont clean up after himself and im just so tired, i never sleep due to the fact m always worried that something bad is going to happen to my father i can not live in these moments were i cant figure out whats wrong or right, i dont want to lose myself again been there tomany times to be back there so soon. This is so painful, but yet i dont know how to say or feel the things that have been getting to me, my life is lost in the surrealness of this world i live, i do to much, i care to much, i jsut dont try hard enough tomake it work... i want to save the world and i cant even save my own fater, i need to start over in a new life and do something different and new, i dont know what i want to find i just hope its before i die...