If, When and Why?
Title: If, When and Why? [One-Shot]
Fandom: SS501
Pairings:HyunSaeng, MinSaeng
Rating: PG
Warnings: Angst, Romance (<.< why is that a warning?)
Author's Notes: LOL <3 Honestly I shouldn't laugh but really this fic started out so sad and was meant to have a sad ending....was...meant too..
There isn't a true purpose for writing it and actually it started out as a hyunmin fic...I don't even like that pairing...maybe thats why it got changed to MinSaeng by accident. ^^' My biased is to obvious ...i'm addicited. <3 oh well...
It wouldn't have been the first time had heard the sounds. Those noises escaping the room near his own. With a hand on his head he cowered into the corner of his bed against the wall holding his knees. He hated those sounds, yet every time he heard them he would listen....listen for the sound of the beautiful voice belonging to his Young Saeng. He would wait to hear as the sounds he loved grew higher and higher till he knew they could go no longer and he heard the moan....the moan that was meant to hold his name, not Hyun Joong's.
As all grew quite again and he sank lower into the bed the wall being no longer a support. He hadn't cried in ages, not over this matter...not anymore. His tears had all but dried out. He heard the shift of the covers, the mattress squeaking under the two bodies before silence again. They were going to sleep.
His head his pillow staring at his wall, it wasn't like this before...it had been better then this before.
"Jungmin!" Young Saeng's voice was an easy one to hear, so perfect..so flawless.. "I love you...and that will never change.."
"Lies" Jungmin whispered into the darkness as if the vision in his head could hear him. "..Your nothing but a liar..."
"...Jungmin..run!" Young Saeng's voice was weak as he held his chest, blood easily seen. "..I promise..I'll return to you.."
"..Stop lying." Jungmin's voice was choked as if he could start crying any minuet but no tear was every shed. "...You didn't come back..."
"...Who are you?" Young Saeng stared into Jungmin's eyes, his eyes hazy and emotionless. "..I'm Young Saeng but I don't know...a Jungmin.."
"...You...you went to him." Jungmin almost shouted into the darkness. "..You went to fucking Hyun Joong! "
His fist clenched the covers, not so much anger but pain filled his chest suffocating him. "Your not my Young Saeng! "
His eyes quickly opened breathing hard as he stared at the wall from quickly sitting up. He was sure someone...anyone would come in and tell him to shut up. No one did.
His eyes fell to look back at his covers, a sudden cold sweat having forming on his brow. He wiped it off before making his way to the kitchen, he needed water. That, is what he told himself.
He took a cup, filled it and took a drink but was sooner splashing his face then drinking it. His knuckles were white from his tight grip on the counter as he started at the metal of the sink. He saw his reflection, blurry and deformed and for a moment he wondered if this was the Jungmin Young Saeng saw now. An ugly creature he wanted nothing to deal with.
Slowly Jungmin hit his knees his head resting on the cabinet door under the sink. Slowly though he felt tears forming in the back of his eyes, and before he could stop them he felt one slid down his cheek.
No, he wouldn't cry over this..it was the water dripping from his hair...that was it. That is what he chose to believe. His fist hit the cabinet hard causing glass he had sat on the edge of the counter to tumble to the floor hitting with a soft plastic hitting floor noise. To Jungmin it....it was the sound of a car crash....
Young Saeng's eyes shifted back to the front just in time to see the truck run straight into the front of his car.
"YOUNG SAENG!" Jungmin's voice was a shrill scream but it faded to silence as he blacked out. He only remembered one thing...seeing them take Young Saeng away in that flashing red and white vehicle.
"Jungmin?" Kyu Jong's voice was tired sounding behind him. "You okay..?"
Jungmin turned to look at him and nodded slowly rising to his feet. "Fine...just really tired..."
"Get some sleep...it's one in the morning."
"What are you doing up?"
"I heard noises in here? Was it you?"
Jungmin picked the cup up dropping it into the sink before nodding slowly. " Yeah...Good night hyung.." he walked past him heading back towards his room.
"Jungmin.." Kyu Jong started again gaining a tired look from his dongsaeng. "..You know he's happ.."
"Good night Kyu Jong." Jungmin said quickly his tone easily giving away his annoyance and pain.
Kyu Jong watched him and sighed.
Jungmin sat back on the corner of his bed his hand resting on the wall, enjoying the coolness it brought.
The coolness...
The beep of the hospital room, the ticking of the clock.
Jungmin watched him, his weak lover on the brink of life and death laying in that bed. He slowly interlocked his hand with those cool fingers.
"I'll never leave your side Saengie...I'll never stop loving you...I promise you."
The only answer he received was the slow, ragged breathing from his lover.
Before Jungmin could understand what had happened he was awakened by the loud shouts from the magnae of the group hopping on the bed.
"Get up Min..." He gasped in pain as said horse grabbed his hair before kicking him off the bed.
"...Leave me...alone.."
Hyung Joon whined from where he rubbed his head on the floor. "Get up" He whined at him. "Manager wants you.."
Jungmin turned to bury himself under the covers.
Hyung Joon groaned and stood scurrying out of the room going to get the manager.
'Damn baby' Jungmin moaned holding his head, a headache slowly forming. He heard footsteps make their way into his room and turned to throw a glare at who he knew would be baby and the Manager. His eyes winded as he locked eyes with Young Saeng, who stood in the center of the room.
Jungmin could feel his heart almost stop. Why was he here? Why was he in his room?
"...You should get up." Young Saeng started. "Our schedule starts soon..."
Jungmin couldn't fight the laugh that broke gaining a confused look from his hyung.
"..Get up?...Schedule? " Jungmin rose from the bed slowly taking a step towards him. "...Do you really think I can with you standing in my room as if it's just any other day?"
Young Saeng went to respond but was cut off as Jungmin's lips met his quickly pushing the older against a wall.
"Young Saeng..." Jungmin's voice cracked as he watched his lover pull away from a kiss with their leader. "What are you..."
"...Who are you?" Young Saeng asked as Jungmin pulled him away."
"Jungmin! I'm your lover Young Saeng!'
"..I am Young Saeng...but I don't know a Jungmin..."
Jungmin pushed the kiss deeper stealing the kiss as long as he could but only moved to kissing his neck as Young Saeng looked away from him.
His kisses were being ignored.
"...I still don't know you...You...your familer to me..yet.." he cut off as their manager walked in. "...You have been in my dreams...Maybe...I can remember you..." he pushed away from Jungmin before walking to their manager.
"Get dressed Jungmin..were going to be late!"
Jungmin watched them breathing hard from shock and yet he could feel a smile crossing his lips.
"...Young Saeng." he started.
Young Saeng looked back at him.
"...heh...I love you..."
Young Saeng looked at his manager who was walking out of the room mumbling something about boys being boys.
He turned back to Jungmin.
"...In my dreams....I always say...I love you too." He blinked a few times before sighing turning and walking out of the room.
Fandom: SS501
Pairings:HyunSaeng, MinSaeng
Rating: PG
Warnings: Angst, Romance (<.< why is that a warning?)
Author's Notes: LOL <3 Honestly I shouldn't laugh but really this fic started out so sad and was meant to have a sad ending....was...meant too..
There isn't a true purpose for writing it and actually it started out as a hyunmin fic...I don't even like that pairing...maybe thats why it got changed to MinSaeng by accident. ^^' My biased is to obvious ...i'm addicited. <3 oh well...
It wouldn't have been the first time had heard the sounds. Those noises escaping the room near his own. With a hand on his head he cowered into the corner of his bed against the wall holding his knees. He hated those sounds, yet every time he heard them he would listen....listen for the sound of the beautiful voice belonging to his Young Saeng. He would wait to hear as the sounds he loved grew higher and higher till he knew they could go no longer and he heard the moan....the moan that was meant to hold his name, not Hyun Joong's.
As all grew quite again and he sank lower into the bed the wall being no longer a support. He hadn't cried in ages, not over this matter...not anymore. His tears had all but dried out. He heard the shift of the covers, the mattress squeaking under the two bodies before silence again. They were going to sleep.
His head his pillow staring at his wall, it wasn't like this before...it had been better then this before.
"Jungmin!" Young Saeng's voice was an easy one to hear, so perfect..so flawless.. "I love you...and that will never change.."
"Lies" Jungmin whispered into the darkness as if the vision in his head could hear him. "..Your nothing but a liar..."
"...Jungmin..run!" Young Saeng's voice was weak as he held his chest, blood easily seen. "..I promise..I'll return to you.."
"..Stop lying." Jungmin's voice was choked as if he could start crying any minuet but no tear was every shed. "...You didn't come back..."
"...Who are you?" Young Saeng stared into Jungmin's eyes, his eyes hazy and emotionless. "..I'm Young Saeng but I don't know...a Jungmin.."
"...You...you went to him." Jungmin almost shouted into the darkness. "..You went to fucking Hyun Joong! "
His fist clenched the covers, not so much anger but pain filled his chest suffocating him. "Your not my Young Saeng! "
His eyes quickly opened breathing hard as he stared at the wall from quickly sitting up. He was sure someone...anyone would come in and tell him to shut up. No one did.
His eyes fell to look back at his covers, a sudden cold sweat having forming on his brow. He wiped it off before making his way to the kitchen, he needed water. That, is what he told himself.
He took a cup, filled it and took a drink but was sooner splashing his face then drinking it. His knuckles were white from his tight grip on the counter as he started at the metal of the sink. He saw his reflection, blurry and deformed and for a moment he wondered if this was the Jungmin Young Saeng saw now. An ugly creature he wanted nothing to deal with.
Slowly Jungmin hit his knees his head resting on the cabinet door under the sink. Slowly though he felt tears forming in the back of his eyes, and before he could stop them he felt one slid down his cheek.
No, he wouldn't cry over this..it was the water dripping from his hair...that was it. That is what he chose to believe. His fist hit the cabinet hard causing glass he had sat on the edge of the counter to tumble to the floor hitting with a soft plastic hitting floor noise. To Jungmin it....it was the sound of a car crash....
Young Saeng's eyes shifted back to the front just in time to see the truck run straight into the front of his car.
"YOUNG SAENG!" Jungmin's voice was a shrill scream but it faded to silence as he blacked out. He only remembered one thing...seeing them take Young Saeng away in that flashing red and white vehicle.
"Jungmin?" Kyu Jong's voice was tired sounding behind him. "You okay..?"
Jungmin turned to look at him and nodded slowly rising to his feet. "Fine...just really tired..."
"Get some sleep...it's one in the morning."
"What are you doing up?"
"I heard noises in here? Was it you?"
Jungmin picked the cup up dropping it into the sink before nodding slowly. " Yeah...Good night hyung.." he walked past him heading back towards his room.
"Jungmin.." Kyu Jong started again gaining a tired look from his dongsaeng. "..You know he's happ.."
"Good night Kyu Jong." Jungmin said quickly his tone easily giving away his annoyance and pain.
Kyu Jong watched him and sighed.
Jungmin sat back on the corner of his bed his hand resting on the wall, enjoying the coolness it brought.
The coolness...
The beep of the hospital room, the ticking of the clock.
Jungmin watched him, his weak lover on the brink of life and death laying in that bed. He slowly interlocked his hand with those cool fingers.
"I'll never leave your side Saengie...I'll never stop loving you...I promise you."
The only answer he received was the slow, ragged breathing from his lover.
Before Jungmin could understand what had happened he was awakened by the loud shouts from the magnae of the group hopping on the bed.
"Get up Min..." He gasped in pain as said horse grabbed his hair before kicking him off the bed.
"...Leave me...alone.."
Hyung Joon whined from where he rubbed his head on the floor. "Get up" He whined at him. "Manager wants you.."
Jungmin turned to bury himself under the covers.
Hyung Joon groaned and stood scurrying out of the room going to get the manager.
'Damn baby' Jungmin moaned holding his head, a headache slowly forming. He heard footsteps make their way into his room and turned to throw a glare at who he knew would be baby and the Manager. His eyes winded as he locked eyes with Young Saeng, who stood in the center of the room.
Jungmin could feel his heart almost stop. Why was he here? Why was he in his room?
"...You should get up." Young Saeng started. "Our schedule starts soon..."
Jungmin couldn't fight the laugh that broke gaining a confused look from his hyung.
"..Get up?...Schedule? " Jungmin rose from the bed slowly taking a step towards him. "...Do you really think I can with you standing in my room as if it's just any other day?"
Young Saeng went to respond but was cut off as Jungmin's lips met his quickly pushing the older against a wall.
"Young Saeng..." Jungmin's voice cracked as he watched his lover pull away from a kiss with their leader. "What are you..."
"...Who are you?" Young Saeng asked as Jungmin pulled him away."
"Jungmin! I'm your lover Young Saeng!'
"..I am Young Saeng...but I don't know a Jungmin..."
Jungmin pushed the kiss deeper stealing the kiss as long as he could but only moved to kissing his neck as Young Saeng looked away from him.
His kisses were being ignored.
"...I still don't know you...You...your familer to me..yet.." he cut off as their manager walked in. "...You have been in my dreams...Maybe...I can remember you..." he pushed away from Jungmin before walking to their manager.
"Get dressed Jungmin..were going to be late!"
Jungmin watched them breathing hard from shock and yet he could feel a smile crossing his lips.
"...Young Saeng." he started.
Young Saeng looked back at him.
"...heh...I love you..."
Young Saeng looked at his manager who was walking out of the room mumbling something about boys being boys.
He turned back to Jungmin.
"...In my dreams....I always say...I love you too." He blinked a few times before sighing turning and walking out of the room.