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Aura in this room has become a strange appears to affect the situation immediately. His thoughts suddenly he was not ruled himself and the brain cells send a reply message comes at once why I do this? Another oddity came up, the pot comes to leading question had come spontaneously this is the way, I know you can be happy without me!! The answer came after thousands of hours and day after day and to declare certain days will come then it has been set is today?? He did not know how to explain that answer? For me, I love you like loving myself. but How could I wanted to break up with myself??
Maybe ryo understand why every people facing death, not just humans, animals were also included junior also died. He understands must be a junior now also will live again may be a bear, or if luck is in the small dog of Nishikido family owned it for years so maybe he has a future as human, happiness cannot be eternal, but at least he could feel his life. That allegation ryo so he could understand the concept of separation is the beginning rendezvous. Sometimes we have to separate ourselves in other words. Who have transformed themselves into human beings someone that we love.
Ryo's been looking at the verge of his lover Hiroki’s borders as people in pain because of cuts in the adequate claws, Hiroki tight embrace with his own mouth shut and jaws tense reply. Ryo wants to tell him that he know why he is sick.” Mouth lock word nothing came out. Ryo also want to tell him that he was also hurt because he saw Hiroki moaning in pain. He can’t help the situation was not conducive to express feelings of each.
It is regrettable mouth helpless when a crisis like this?? ryo look back Hiroki's eyes, eyes that he could see the reflection of the need of comfort, advice or fresh humor that is slightly relieved pain? Currently as if ryo condemned what he usually can be brought out dozens of words in a few seconds but now cannot get out. Does this silence is the end result for a few years they were together. Togetherness with his beauty shared with much such heartache like honey is too sweet, and hated for being too sweet
The direction of their gaze was not directed from there to run around getting confident finding focus each other's eyes. At some point it looks like the old days any more. He could not forget how Hiroki looked at him, and Hiroki impossible to know how to look it started. It's strange, when we want to close the box filled with Things that we like instantly we want to take all the objects stored at the end of the box that we don’t know.
Hiroki hands move hesitantly took his hand as if he but ryo pull back. Is these 2 human beings who already have experience of love for many years and feel insulate their bodies into a sudden reluctance to touch anything
"What will happen to me later?? I will lonely and you're probably lonely either…..So there’s no other way to us got together again?? " This revolving line of Hiroki say to break the loneliness that happened since the 30 minutes passed.
the reflex of ryo’s mouth open to answer but still no sound from the air only a small sigh issued from the pulmonary circulation, he did not know what to answer. he did not know what happened this out. Ryo also still do not know why this could happen
but he felt his heart out as he knew that that day they decided to stay together, because they cannot be individual, there are times when ryo needs hiroki as well as hiroki did. Ryo is not someone to make Hiroki as his lover not because he did not want to be called single man for lifetime but because it was the encouragement from the heart to receive it. He did not want Hiroki life is not worth it because it thinks love Hiroki better life in space and live there happily with his face alien wrote much ugly from him
Ryo, ... why?
What did you do yesterday?? Why do not call me??Have I forgotten? Finally he could say that
No, how could I forget you??
I was alone there… while waiting your call… from the way you did yesterday I know you’d prefer your work than spare your time only 5 minutes to ask my condition or at least you answered my call
* Casually RYOO do you think straight like that, at least you can tolerate me back there shooting, I'm going to call you but ...* ryo is always preceded by arguing something
Buts what.. But still there is next photo shoot and they do not give you a break, isn’t it?? *
Hiroki quiet this time, he had just dried his tears now the tears began to trickle back. Whether he's hard to guess how many liters he would spend on this * So… you still want to separate, what will you not to regret it?? *
Among them there is no one knows
“two years, two years Hiroki what we will dispose of just 2 years?? Indeed ryo says it like make a huge wound to himself. Where he could feel this reply during their relationship was in vain. Ryo clear record and save all. He, Hiroki and all moments which occurred during the 2 years. Eat up back that words is impossible.
"TELL ME SOMETHING ..." ryo's voice exploded
he screams like a command line led the flag ceremony as if he would move his hands to hug ryo. Nerve reflex appears unexpected.
Ryo's body continued to struggle; Hiroki could feel the anger accompanied by pain, pain that he experienced exactly like this. He felt this even more when he tightened his arms. Tantrums were getting into, ryo mobilize all means to be free from his arms but he did not know what to do. Not long after that he knew to End all by answering the question ryo that earlier
"Goodbye my love” his face that had been removed earlier he bring back and put his lips a beautiful shape of his lover, though not on the entire lip, Hiroki keep trying to make this kiss perfect.
Ryo himself could feel the sensation of the kiss that much different from the ordinary, the heat comes from their bodies that melt all the ice is in the heart. The answer was finally made, too, he was satisfied it had heard the answer. Satisfaction that he was getting replaced with a deeper pain. He thought. ryo want to consider something like love is unexisting and invisible is something absurd.
Every simple Phrase "good-bye” that Hiroki repeats continuously with water swift enough protruding eyes, his hands squeezing the yellow t-shirt ryo wear today. Ryo’s collar was wet. It doesn’t lie. Ryo did not remain silent, aching eardrums to hear that simple sentence. He wished he was deaf only to not hear the word ,he shut up his soon-to-be ex-lover with a more passionate kiss than the previous Hiroki gave to him. Why is it? That the more words that come out from your mouth give me temperature.
"I shall prepare my stuffs, my flight at 8 pm was going to leave" the sentence was the same shrinking Hiroki hurried back to the room.
Ryo's hand seems still don’t want to release the grip of this "don’t go yet at least stay for one night”
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