Things that should be said...
I am such a dork...
Last night was both crazy and awesome at the same time. I still can't believe it all really happened. I am shocked at what I did and what was done to me. I am glad that it all happened but I don't know what to make of it all. I know that I am not as good as I used to be but I don't think that it's a bad thing. I like who I am slowly becoming and I am having more fun then ever before. What happened last night was awesome and I want to repeat it. I never thought that I would feel like this but I can't help it. I can't help that I have these thoughts or that I feel the way I do. I like the way I feel and I like the thoughts that are in mind head.
I don't know if anyone will understand this entry. I think that at least two will but I am not sure who else would get it.
I am so excited that I am breaking out of my shell. I am not as shy as I used to be and I am not as much as a push over either. I like being able to say the things that pop into my head and act out on things that I want to do. I am having fun and I haven't had this much fun in awhile. I am not going to allow others to ruin this for me either, I can't let them bring me back down to my pervious state. It I make anyone mad I am sorry and I didn't mean to make anyone mad or even hurt them. I just need to feel good and be happy for once. I can't let others make me feel guilty and horrible about things.
Tonight I think I am going to meet Amy and Deanna at BWW's. I haven't hang out with the two of them in a very long time. I kinda miss it and I can't wait to see them. It should be fun. I love you guys!!!
I'm at Faye's and she's sleeping...It's cute...I love her!!!
M~I hope that you will know that this is for you. This isn't meant to hurt you...I can't help how I feel, or don't in this case, and neither can you. I don't like you the way you like me and there's nothing I can do to change it. I thought that I had made it clear but I can see now that I didn't. Maybe they were right I can't be friends with someone that likes me. I don't want to put you through what I did last night again. I didn't want to hurt you and that's what I've done. I can't just lie to protect you because in the end we will both be hurt. I thought that we could be friends but I see now that we can't. I am sorry but we can't be friends anymore. It's too hard on both of us. This is hard for me to do but I have to. Please don't come to my classes anymore. I think that this is the best way to deal with our situation. You'll find the girl that's right for you, it's just not me. I may run into you but please don't make a big deal of it. Good bye and good luck.
I feel like I got a lot out of me just now. I am so glad that I had the time to do this...
I am out of things to say... LOL!!!
Last night was both crazy and awesome at the same time. I still can't believe it all really happened. I am shocked at what I did and what was done to me. I am glad that it all happened but I don't know what to make of it all. I know that I am not as good as I used to be but I don't think that it's a bad thing. I like who I am slowly becoming and I am having more fun then ever before. What happened last night was awesome and I want to repeat it. I never thought that I would feel like this but I can't help it. I can't help that I have these thoughts or that I feel the way I do. I like the way I feel and I like the thoughts that are in mind head.
I don't know if anyone will understand this entry. I think that at least two will but I am not sure who else would get it.
I am so excited that I am breaking out of my shell. I am not as shy as I used to be and I am not as much as a push over either. I like being able to say the things that pop into my head and act out on things that I want to do. I am having fun and I haven't had this much fun in awhile. I am not going to allow others to ruin this for me either, I can't let them bring me back down to my pervious state. It I make anyone mad I am sorry and I didn't mean to make anyone mad or even hurt them. I just need to feel good and be happy for once. I can't let others make me feel guilty and horrible about things.
Tonight I think I am going to meet Amy and Deanna at BWW's. I haven't hang out with the two of them in a very long time. I kinda miss it and I can't wait to see them. It should be fun. I love you guys!!!
I'm at Faye's and she's sleeping...It's cute...I love her!!!
M~I hope that you will know that this is for you. This isn't meant to hurt you...I can't help how I feel, or don't in this case, and neither can you. I don't like you the way you like me and there's nothing I can do to change it. I thought that I had made it clear but I can see now that I didn't. Maybe they were right I can't be friends with someone that likes me. I don't want to put you through what I did last night again. I didn't want to hurt you and that's what I've done. I can't just lie to protect you because in the end we will both be hurt. I thought that we could be friends but I see now that we can't. I am sorry but we can't be friends anymore. It's too hard on both of us. This is hard for me to do but I have to. Please don't come to my classes anymore. I think that this is the best way to deal with our situation. You'll find the girl that's right for you, it's just not me. I may run into you but please don't make a big deal of it. Good bye and good luck.
I feel like I got a lot out of me just now. I am so glad that I had the time to do this...
I am out of things to say... LOL!!!