I want out...
I just want out, i just wanna leave! people are getting mad at me for the stupidest reasons.....i'm doing stupid things that i shouldn't do. and i'm screwing everything up. i ma so far failing every class this semester, and i don't even wanna go to school. nothing in my life is a priority anymore. i'm freaking out about everything. and i'm going crazy. i don't even no where to start, i just want some time along, as in like a week. by myself, so everyone will calm down. i'm watching sex and the city, and their talking about smoking pot to get rid of their problems, i'm thinking that may even be a good idea. honestly, i just need sumone who understands my life. but no one ever does. and on top of it all my diabeties is soo screwed up, my blood is high all the time! all the fucking time!!! and its bull shit its all bullshit, no1 knows what i'm going threw with this fuckkking shit, no one here understands!!! fuck this bull shit! my blood is always high! but i diffinatly said that already! ohh and fuck, they want me to start this shit ass carb counting shit, and i cant get it down pat, i've done like 5 fucking food records!!! and their still fucking makeing me do more. whatever its all BULL FUCKING SHIT!! its sooo retarted, i can't express it enough....ohh and also...everytime i take a fucking needle it hurts!! I HATE NEEDLES FUCKING HATE THEM! the docters tell me to chnage my sites cuz their over used, well no shit i take up to a million needles a day do you honeslty expect me to find a spot thats not over used!!! fucking BULLSHIT if you ask me! fuck this is gayy!! i'm out and i'm pissed right the eff off, if anyone has any advice on how to live my life and how to find myself, it would be wonderful if you could tell me!!!!!!!