ok.. im really bad at this
wow.. im terrible at keeping this up. haha.
sooo College started.. and its been pretty good.. not to mention I got sick in the first 3 days and was sick up until now october break... 5 weeks. wow that sucked. Ive met some really awesome friends that I know will help me through this year.. esp Meg, Sammie and Jared. I have this group of guys 2 floors down that remind me of hanging out with my brother and his friends.. which is soooo nice i cant even explian.. its almost like when i get the feeling of missing my brother i jsut can go down stairs to get the same atmosphere...
things with kristen havent been so great which sucks b/c I really do miss her alot.. I whole hell of alot.. we had so much fun our senior year and I dont even know what happened.. I know we look at things differently but I do miss her and our good times. :( *frowns.. big ones*
But something that I have big smiles about.. Gunner... wow.. what can I say about him.. anytime we spend together is just soo much fun... amazing.. my heart just melts whenever he comes into my sight.. watching him play football and score touchdowns.. my little Gunner.. ugh he is soooo adorable... the past couple weeks have been rough.. couldnt talkt o him for the first week and this week he was in the shittiest mood but then it all changed:) he came over today for lunch.. which i cooked ALL by myself:).. dont worrry Ive cooked before:-P and we just had this amazing day.. he was smiling and laughing... which i hadnt heard alllll week.. it was soo nice... anytime with him is just like im stuck in this world all the way above anything else and i just float over all that whatever is going on and concentrate on just whats going on with us.. our chemistry is amazing.. i dont think ive seen anything like it.. mmm it makes me smile.. alot.
that was from today... I dont think I expected anything like this happening right now.. and im so ready for it.. and willing to wait how ever long he needs to understand.. im not like her..
School... lets see... to be specific...
Anthropology class (part of my major) - absolutly horrid. hate it. shouldnt though.. it what im supose to be interested in.. i think its the teacher.. hes into archaeology and im not.. hmm
Nature of Story - pretty good... all novels are about veitnam... havent read a page.. starting to now though.. hmmm its ok.. hes funnny.. and not a psycho 'Nam veteran.. hes a insightful 'Nam veteran.. kinda influential.. like him
French - amazing.. well sometimes.. I have it almost everyday.. alot of work.. still having a hard time comprehending verbal french.. but ill get there.. i hope.. i love the language
Modern dance - Amazing! I love it.. I thought it would be silly/stupid... I love it.. I go there everyday pumped I love the teacher.. shes one of those proffessors that just is a ray of sunshine.. its sooo nice... I cant even explain how i feel when i look in those mirrors... and see the muscle back in my leg... the pain i go through is excruitating... but when i see myself progressing day by day.. it makes me so happy i wanna cry..
Psychology - boring. just reveiwing what i know. but the proff. is funny and trys to keep it interesting. hes a nice guy.
Work Study - UMaine Athletics. Amazing. Love it. Tailgating is tons of fun. week work is ok.. not bad.. love the people.
ummm one short sentence that if anyone really knows me... knows this is so important to me it could break me..
I got back in the pool
it feels amazing.. I cant even explain how good it feels to have the water hit my face and me just glide.. ugh.. I know ill never will be at the point where I feel as good as I use to.. but it just is nice that im back there.. back to my passion...
ok so its 1:21 am... i just work from 5-12 and im kinda tired.. getting up early.
lol:-P I know who is reading this.. I miss you Mum! I do.. mwah!! XOXOXOX
more to talk about? oh yes.. got time? i will soon! I promise
sooo College started.. and its been pretty good.. not to mention I got sick in the first 3 days and was sick up until now october break... 5 weeks. wow that sucked. Ive met some really awesome friends that I know will help me through this year.. esp Meg, Sammie and Jared. I have this group of guys 2 floors down that remind me of hanging out with my brother and his friends.. which is soooo nice i cant even explian.. its almost like when i get the feeling of missing my brother i jsut can go down stairs to get the same atmosphere...
things with kristen havent been so great which sucks b/c I really do miss her alot.. I whole hell of alot.. we had so much fun our senior year and I dont even know what happened.. I know we look at things differently but I do miss her and our good times. :( *frowns.. big ones*
But something that I have big smiles about.. Gunner... wow.. what can I say about him.. anytime we spend together is just soo much fun... amazing.. my heart just melts whenever he comes into my sight.. watching him play football and score touchdowns.. my little Gunner.. ugh he is soooo adorable... the past couple weeks have been rough.. couldnt talkt o him for the first week and this week he was in the shittiest mood but then it all changed:) he came over today for lunch.. which i cooked ALL by myself:).. dont worrry Ive cooked before:-P and we just had this amazing day.. he was smiling and laughing... which i hadnt heard alllll week.. it was soo nice... anytime with him is just like im stuck in this world all the way above anything else and i just float over all that whatever is going on and concentrate on just whats going on with us.. our chemistry is amazing.. i dont think ive seen anything like it.. mmm it makes me smile.. alot.
that was from today... I dont think I expected anything like this happening right now.. and im so ready for it.. and willing to wait how ever long he needs to understand.. im not like her..
School... lets see... to be specific...
Anthropology class (part of my major) - absolutly horrid. hate it. shouldnt though.. it what im supose to be interested in.. i think its the teacher.. hes into archaeology and im not.. hmm
Nature of Story - pretty good... all novels are about veitnam... havent read a page.. starting to now though.. hmmm its ok.. hes funnny.. and not a psycho 'Nam veteran.. hes a insightful 'Nam veteran.. kinda influential.. like him
French - amazing.. well sometimes.. I have it almost everyday.. alot of work.. still having a hard time comprehending verbal french.. but ill get there.. i hope.. i love the language
Modern dance - Amazing! I love it.. I thought it would be silly/stupid... I love it.. I go there everyday pumped I love the teacher.. shes one of those proffessors that just is a ray of sunshine.. its sooo nice... I cant even explain how i feel when i look in those mirrors... and see the muscle back in my leg... the pain i go through is excruitating... but when i see myself progressing day by day.. it makes me so happy i wanna cry..
Psychology - boring. just reveiwing what i know. but the proff. is funny and trys to keep it interesting. hes a nice guy.
Work Study - UMaine Athletics. Amazing. Love it. Tailgating is tons of fun. week work is ok.. not bad.. love the people.
ummm one short sentence that if anyone really knows me... knows this is so important to me it could break me..
I got back in the pool
it feels amazing.. I cant even explain how good it feels to have the water hit my face and me just glide.. ugh.. I know ill never will be at the point where I feel as good as I use to.. but it just is nice that im back there.. back to my passion...
ok so its 1:21 am... i just work from 5-12 and im kinda tired.. getting up early.
lol:-P I know who is reading this.. I miss you Mum! I do.. mwah!! XOXOXOX
more to talk about? oh yes.. got time? i will soon! I promise