Why do I suck?
Ok, just a warning: this is going to be a very emotional entry. I had my second interview with Benes & Krueger and I got my rejection letter in the mail today. Wow, they must have sent that bad boy out right after I left the office on Monday. That was my last option. Nobody wants me. It's not supposed to work this way. One reason I liked accounting is because there is a good job market, because there are more positions than people to fill them. Man, how bad do I suck when I can't even get a job? What am I doing so wrong? Yes, there is still the IRS out there, but I am not really expecting that to work out either. I don't want to stay in my initial mindset that all of these other jobs haven't worked out because I will get the IRS job. I can't keep being disappointed like this.
So what do I do now? I thought about just staying in school and getting 150 credits then maybe next year someone will want me. I'd start grad school right away, but it's too late to do that. So I keep applying at places, tell my manager that I will stay doing what I am doing and see what happens. At least I have a job that I can stay at, the benefits are phenomenal and I like the people. But I am yearning to have a job where I am actually doing accounting. Is that too much to ask? Is it too much to ask someone to take a chance on me and let me prove that I am a valuable employee? That if given the chance I will shine?
I really need to talk to someone. I am going to make an appointment with a graduate adviser to see what my options are. Maybe I should have interviewed for internships instead of full time. So I should see if it is even possible to get an internship still.
My day started out so well. Maybe it will end well.
I'm not happy. I feel like I've hit a wall. I went splat and fell to the ground.
So what do I do now? I thought about just staying in school and getting 150 credits then maybe next year someone will want me. I'd start grad school right away, but it's too late to do that. So I keep applying at places, tell my manager that I will stay doing what I am doing and see what happens. At least I have a job that I can stay at, the benefits are phenomenal and I like the people. But I am yearning to have a job where I am actually doing accounting. Is that too much to ask? Is it too much to ask someone to take a chance on me and let me prove that I am a valuable employee? That if given the chance I will shine?
I really need to talk to someone. I am going to make an appointment with a graduate adviser to see what my options are. Maybe I should have interviewed for internships instead of full time. So I should see if it is even possible to get an internship still.
My day started out so well. Maybe it will end well.
I'm not happy. I feel like I've hit a wall. I went splat and fell to the ground.