feeling sorry for myself, but it might be gone tomorrow
Today I feel crappy and lame. Jason and I were talking the other day about how he has grown out of the go out and be a college kid thing and I feel like I haven't really experienced it. Im not saying that I regret the choices that i've made, but i feel like i am missing out sometimes. I am a 35 year old in a 20 year old body and i hate it. I have a super hard time meeting people too...and that is not good. Actually, I should refrase that. Im sort of afraid of people. I always feel like people dont' really want to hang out with me when im with them. My doctor suggested that I might have social anxiety, but whatever it is, all i know is that right now i feel like a total loser, and I can't sleep.