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so far for the most part this whole year has sucked.
for a while it got better, but lately has sucked.
everyone seems to hate me, whether its because i hated them first or not.
my parents said theyd let me do homeschooling, and at first i said "no id miss school and everyone there to much" but now im seriously considering doing it.
i cant go one day at school without coming home crying.
everyone finds something to pick on me for, everyday, ever class...and no im not exaggerating.
alot of people honestly make me wonder, about the things they do, what they say, and how they act, and treat me.
all i wanna know is what i did, yea i admit sometimes i deserve it, but alot of the other times i dont.
yea i know i make mistakes, i do alot, maybe alot more than most people, but thats how i am, thats how ive always been, and im not changing over night, hell, i might not ever change, and if thats bothersome, then maybe youd do better without me.
yea id be sad, but if im such a bad person, maybe it would be better to not associate with me.
i dont mean to make you sad or unhappy or feel like im a liar, or im not trusting, but all i try to do is be nice and a good friend to you, even sometimes i make the wrong decission, and its something you dont approve of, thats just me.
i honestly dont know what to do.
but i know what ever i choose itll be for a good reason.
im not letting people boss me around, or put me down, im not gunna just sit there and pretend everythings okay, because its not.
i dont want your sympathy, i want your approval.
