Happy New Years
So i'm finally doing a holiday post...i feel so temecula. Ok so my plans completely spazzed out for tonight.First it was gonna be Ryan and I....didn't realize we were gonna break up 3 days before new years. Then Josh had an extra ticket to the show atSoma and then i was just gonna spend the night on his boat. Well a storm came up and my dad didn't want me on a boat durring a huge storm. So those plans got canceled...so i ended up sitting at home...alone...in my room....on New years...with no one to kiss....that sucks.
So apparently Ryan now wants to work things out. He says he's ready to talk face-to-face. So he said he might come down tomorrow (ok technically today since it's 12:35 a.m.) but we'll see if he actually does. I really don't want to get my hopes up and then have him not show up and me get all depressed. He promised me ealier today he would be my new years kiss, so hopefully he didn't kiss anyone else...that would suck. I've said " that would suck" alot lately....maybe it's my catch phrase like Paris Hilton saying "That's Hot". I dunno. All i know is i'm alone....and that sucks.
No one called me on New Years...that makes me feel like a loner..I finally get a cell phone and no one calls me. I need to make more friends. I just don't get along with girls very well...and boys always think with their penises, so it's a pain in the ass. Then Ryan and i broke up so i lost my bestfriend and the person i talk to most. I can't wait for all this drama to be over and for us to just be together again...
I'm bored and rambling again...sorry everyone.
So apparently Ryan now wants to work things out. He says he's ready to talk face-to-face. So he said he might come down tomorrow (ok technically today since it's 12:35 a.m.) but we'll see if he actually does. I really don't want to get my hopes up and then have him not show up and me get all depressed. He promised me ealier today he would be my new years kiss, so hopefully he didn't kiss anyone else...that would suck. I've said " that would suck" alot lately....maybe it's my catch phrase like Paris Hilton saying "That's Hot". I dunno. All i know is i'm alone....and that sucks.
No one called me on New Years...that makes me feel like a loner..I finally get a cell phone and no one calls me. I need to make more friends. I just don't get along with girls very well...and boys always think with their penises, so it's a pain in the ass. Then Ryan and i broke up so i lost my bestfriend and the person i talk to most. I can't wait for all this drama to be over and for us to just be together again...
I'm bored and rambling again...sorry everyone.