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[jaideybean]

Sometimes I feel really trapped inside of my body. I feel like the way I act and the way I sound can never truly match up with what is going on inside of me. I'm constantly thinking and feeling and evaluating and analyzing inside my head but on the outside I look like a big blonde angry flurry of feelings that acts before thinking. I seem all articulate and loud and obnoxious and I don't feel like that, but I can't seem to prevent acting that way. It doesn't make any sense to me sometimes.

I feel like one huge misrepresentation.

Good grief.