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[jaidenstar]

I've become so numb to you. You can't hurt me anymore. No longer to you hold one of the keys to my heart. I've taken that key and thrown it over a bridge. That way, even if I wanted to give it back, I wouldn't be able to. I am never going to set myself up to get hurt by you again.. did you honestly think you were ever my friend? I cared about you. And you let me down, broke my trust so many times. You hurt me, you kissed him. You touched him. You let him touch you. You slept with him, you were in his arms. And the worst part is, you wanted to be there. You'll never say you love him, but I know you do. I know I trusted you too well. I can't believe I didn't know. Forget our memories. Forget everything, just give me myself back. Get out of my life, and take all your drama with you. I don't need you anymore, I don't need one more day of you wasting me away. I don't hate you. I could never hate you. But I hate all the things you've ever made me feel.

You're not worth it hunnie. And I think you know that. Maybe that's why you ganged up on me. You tried to make me feel worthless, nonexistant. When really, you're the bad guy. You're the one who hurts everybody. So many have gone through this before me, and it's all becuase of you. But guess what? I'm breaking the habit. I'm breaking that hold that you have over me. It's gone. No more. I'm done with you.

Why is it, that high school seems to be consumed by drama? You can feel it even before you walk through those front doors. I can't wait to get out and leave it all behind. I can't wait to be free. And Amanda Tonnessen. I love you, lol. I hope we can become really good friends. Because we seem to understand each other. <3