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I'm so bored right now... jesus i need a hobby or something
i don't think i've accomplished a single thing in close to a year.. if that
right now i really feel useless and lazy
i envy people who care about school and can focus on doing work and shit like that.. because i can't, not even a fucking bit... which sucks, kinda
i think i'm feeling like this because i really want to be making movies right now, but instead i'm supposed to be concerned about writing essays and reading douchebag theories moderism and shit... wtf? how is that something that someone can motivate themselves to do?
i should also be trying to get this band idea going... i'm much too self-concious to even pretend to be able to do that without being dragged into it though..
nuts
i'm so pissed off with myself... and disappointed
i know now that i'll never actually be able change these things in myslef.. before i always thought that one day i'd just grow up and everything would come together.. but apparently for that to happen you have to do it yourself.. and i've never been very good at that.... nuts.....
gah, failure
i don't think i've accomplished a single thing in close to a year.. if that
right now i really feel useless and lazy
i envy people who care about school and can focus on doing work and shit like that.. because i can't, not even a fucking bit... which sucks, kinda
i think i'm feeling like this because i really want to be making movies right now, but instead i'm supposed to be concerned about writing essays and reading douchebag theories moderism and shit... wtf? how is that something that someone can motivate themselves to do?
i should also be trying to get this band idea going... i'm much too self-concious to even pretend to be able to do that without being dragged into it though..
nuts
i'm so pissed off with myself... and disappointed
i know now that i'll never actually be able change these things in myslef.. before i always thought that one day i'd just grow up and everything would come together.. but apparently for that to happen you have to do it yourself.. and i've never been very good at that.... nuts.....
gah, failure