So....
It's four am, I'm wide awake, and sick. In the interest of doing something, anything, I decided to read the backlogs of my livejournal. I'm trying to decide whether not being able to remember who certain posts are about is a good thing, a bad thing, or just really freakin' funny. Honestly, I'm going to go with really freakin' funny. Obviously, there was enough emotion to make posts about them at the time, but can I remember a year and a half later? Nope.
Life continues to be life, which is to say it has its ups and its downs. I'm over moping, and I'm working on taking life as it comes, as opposed to dwelling on things I can't change, or worrying about things that may never happen. Recent events have been emotionally sobering, and the constant reminders from friends and loved ones that life is too short has finally started to sink in.
Better late than never, no?
That being said however, I'm trying to make ammends with my past, while trying to reconcile myself with not being so uppity about the "might nots" and the "maybes". It's a long hard road, but I think it's for the better. I deserve to be happy and I can't if I continue to let other peoples happiness trump my own.
I started jogging/walking today. A mile on day one may have been a bit too ambitious, as I only managed to jog about half of it. I had to walk the other half, and by the time I got to my original destination, I could barely put my feet in front of each other to start back home. Day two, which begins in roughly eight hours will be slightly less ambitious with two trips around the block. That's roughly a quarter mile, so it shouldn't be too bad, while at the same time it should help me ease back into a regular routine. My goal, lose ten pounds by August Thirtieth, my brothers wedding. Well wishes and encouragement are greatly appreciated.
I apologize for not getting back to those of you who have e-mailed me. Between being sick, self-analyzing, and fighting myself with every little decision, I decided to touch base after I've kicked this cold. Expect e-mail soon.
Hopefully this will be the first in a long series of upbeat posts.
I love you all.
Life continues to be life, which is to say it has its ups and its downs. I'm over moping, and I'm working on taking life as it comes, as opposed to dwelling on things I can't change, or worrying about things that may never happen. Recent events have been emotionally sobering, and the constant reminders from friends and loved ones that life is too short has finally started to sink in.
Better late than never, no?
That being said however, I'm trying to make ammends with my past, while trying to reconcile myself with not being so uppity about the "might nots" and the "maybes". It's a long hard road, but I think it's for the better. I deserve to be happy and I can't if I continue to let other peoples happiness trump my own.
I started jogging/walking today. A mile on day one may have been a bit too ambitious, as I only managed to jog about half of it. I had to walk the other half, and by the time I got to my original destination, I could barely put my feet in front of each other to start back home. Day two, which begins in roughly eight hours will be slightly less ambitious with two trips around the block. That's roughly a quarter mile, so it shouldn't be too bad, while at the same time it should help me ease back into a regular routine. My goal, lose ten pounds by August Thirtieth, my brothers wedding. Well wishes and encouragement are greatly appreciated.
I apologize for not getting back to those of you who have e-mailed me. Between being sick, self-analyzing, and fighting myself with every little decision, I decided to touch base after I've kicked this cold. Expect e-mail soon.
Hopefully this will be the first in a long series of upbeat posts.
I love you all.