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[jahk]

I don't understand. Anything. Anyone.
I guess I'm going to rant.

Today is one of those days I feel as small as I actually am.
There's billions of people. And I'm barely just a blip on it.
I don't feeling like this. I want to feel special.
I want to be as little as I sound. I complain too much.
Things almost never go according to plan and I'm still shocked each time it happens.

Most day I want to change the world. Today, I don't.
Today, I want attention. Today, I don't want to be looked past.
I miss my old friends. I wish I knew what happened.
I want some new friends. I want to go to parties.
I want to have fun. I want to feel like I did something.
I want my phone to ring as much as my brother's phone does.
I want to be more likable. I want to be everyone's friend.
I want to walk down the hallway at school, or down the road and have someone recognize me.
I want my boyfriend with me. I want to not feel like I'm going to cry.

I want to get better. I want to be normal. Go ahead, judge me. Everyone else does.

I'm so discouraged by everything.