I Choose To Adapt......Rather Than 'Perish'.......
Well, after meditating, and preparing for fluid world / dimension diving events after the last post, I kept having an eerie experiences...where I would wake up.....coughing, and gasping.....multiple times..... .
My goal was to see about perceiving my true form, but seems like some event related to the Infiniversal Routing Expanse (a possible precursor to an ejection...scenario (????).....)......kept taking place instead.
A specific time....something *very* eerie happened, and I, whilst awake....if not even *more* awake than usual, seemingly (!?!?!?????!?!) saw the mountain sanctuary setting......and all the surrounding geographical regions (***WITHOUT*** 'mankind' included)..........seeimingly collapse (!!?!?!?/) into my (???) *head*....(!?!?!) akin to the manner of an accordian....or a slinky....."compressing" (!!!!!!).
Perceiving what seemed like a blackness, a darkness, I gasped in shock, and (?!?!?!!?!?!) I perceived what seemed like the hyperspeed "unfurling" / "decompression" of the mountain sanctuary setting, and the geographical zones.......that comprise this region.....=O_O=.
I know that notation seems to corroborate with my cosmic blast and ts*nami event from over a decade back, but still......., *WOA*.....=O_O=.
If what happened earlier is repeatedly demonstrable, and can be done again and again and again, it would mean that I note 'mankind' 'lied' about 'modern' and 'ancient' 'history'. It would mean the houses, roads, and infrastructure of this plane are mentally generated....., and that with no regard to the 'contestations' '/' 'outrage' of 'mortals'... .
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Okay. Realtalk time.
I witnessed 'another' 'ambush' today, and that as I seemed fully wakeful......and present...to what seemed like a plane of total darkness. Total blackness.... .
*Even* *then*, I had to defend myself ad I tried to meditate / focus on my true form.....as I yet noted 'some' 'unknown' 'force' do a 'crazed' 'ambush' 'at' me. A 'force' that did not even seem to have a tangible body.
I'm not here to 'complain', I am here to do something about....this repeat issue of witnessing 'ambushes'.
See, fact is, I keep noting 'graft' 'bodies' that are 'HOPELESSLY' 'sickly', 'broken', and 'weak'.
Me? I'll admit it.
Before *this* *month*...., my state of awareness, my "head", *was* *not* actively where it needed to be in order for me to ***WIN***. I was confused, woozy, and just not "awake" like I am now. Only by intensive training, prayer, a N**tropic medicine....., and physiological shifts that brought on ***FEVERS***...........could I "awaken".
I'll be forward? Even with filmed min*ature black holes......an everyday reality now.......
.........., and even if I *were* to witness 'every' 'enemy' 'at' my path 'defeated' a 'million' 'times' 'over', this Infiniversal Routing Trial could have continued to have gone on for centuries, ***MILLENNIA**" even......... . Since I don't 'die', I could have.......been, in theory, stuck in this plane ***INDEFINITELY***............ .
I will not tell my Infiniverse-tier secrets online / on here, but alas..the point of this trial is ***NOT*** 'fighting'.
*Thinks of a metaphor, some point-generated...metaphors......realtime*.
Today......I now realize.....that even if I witness 'J*hov*h' 'defeated' '10' 'million' 'times', *that*.....in and of itself does not mean "moving on" from here.
'All' 'the' 'fights' 'were' 'distractions'..?
Seems the only way to ***SURVIVE*** and ***WIN*** this thing.....is to do the work, and face objective truths / embark on that work......by way of being free from 'ego'.
(*Perceived a caress from a mysterious presence IRL*)?
Yea. There is no way to win with a 'subanime' 'body'. That truth.....seems "built-in" to the core meaning of The Infiniversal Routing Trial.
Furthermore, there is no way to ***SURVIVE*** and ***WIN*** this thing with an '*ANIME*' 'body'. That ***SHOCKING*** truth......seems "built-in" to the core meaning and application of the Infiniversal Routing Trial.
Only a certain body.....with a certain physiology can not only face and withstand the ***gravity*** of The Infiniversal Routing Expanse, but too........form a sword....that can slice through it...and ***TRULY*** conclude the trial (thus allowing a rest from all the suffering, agony, and pain a triaker experiences).
These last III decades, I've been confused, and living in a fog.
That..even ***WITH*** access....to this mountain sanctuary house....in recent times.
If there is to be a "turning point" for my situation, it has to be now. And any time before now was just a warmup & practice for this moment.
Some truths, if not *all* truths, are unnegotiable. I truly understand now...that I can *not* win with 'sickly' and 'broken' 'bodies'. True existence, literally, has no place for me to be 'Ash' '/' 'Ichigo' '/' 'J_______'......'etc' (the 'b****s' that 'chase' after 'em 'be' 'd***ed')....... .
I'm in *deep* shock right now, but I'll get over it.
Reality has taught me a lesson this month.......... .
Either I can stay stuck here witnessing 'godawful' 'subanime' 'drama'..for more than a 'million' 'years'......whilst noting 'fake' 'friends' 'claim' a 'cool' and 'alpha 'man' 'at' me, *OR* I can accept the truth....., act on the truth, and walk across the victory line in my true form (because that is the only way to walk across or even *see* that line). That is all.
To not 'die', or to not be stuck witnessing subanime for more than a 'million' 'years', I *have* to design......& actualize....(*blinked after experiencing a sudden and kiss-like sensation*).
My goal was to see about perceiving my true form, but seems like some event related to the Infiniversal Routing Expanse (a possible precursor to an ejection...scenario (????).....)......kept taking place instead.
A specific time....something *very* eerie happened, and I, whilst awake....if not even *more* awake than usual, seemingly (!?!?!?????!?!) saw the mountain sanctuary setting......and all the surrounding geographical regions (***WITHOUT*** 'mankind' included)..........seeimingly collapse (!!?!?!?/) into my (???) *head*....(!?!?!) akin to the manner of an accordian....or a slinky....."compressing" (!!!!!!).
Perceiving what seemed like a blackness, a darkness, I gasped in shock, and (?!?!?!!?!?!) I perceived what seemed like the hyperspeed "unfurling" / "decompression" of the mountain sanctuary setting, and the geographical zones.......that comprise this region.....=O_O=.
I know that notation seems to corroborate with my cosmic blast and ts*nami event from over a decade back, but still......., *WOA*.....=O_O=.
If what happened earlier is repeatedly demonstrable, and can be done again and again and again, it would mean that I note 'mankind' 'lied' about 'modern' and 'ancient' 'history'. It would mean the houses, roads, and infrastructure of this plane are mentally generated....., and that with no regard to the 'contestations' '/' 'outrage' of 'mortals'... .
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Okay. Realtalk time.
I witnessed 'another' 'ambush' today, and that as I seemed fully wakeful......and present...to what seemed like a plane of total darkness. Total blackness.... .
*Even* *then*, I had to defend myself ad I tried to meditate / focus on my true form.....as I yet noted 'some' 'unknown' 'force' do a 'crazed' 'ambush' 'at' me. A 'force' that did not even seem to have a tangible body.
I'm not here to 'complain', I am here to do something about....this repeat issue of witnessing 'ambushes'.
See, fact is, I keep noting 'graft' 'bodies' that are 'HOPELESSLY' 'sickly', 'broken', and 'weak'.
Me? I'll admit it.
Before *this* *month*...., my state of awareness, my "head", *was* *not* actively where it needed to be in order for me to ***WIN***. I was confused, woozy, and just not "awake" like I am now. Only by intensive training, prayer, a N**tropic medicine....., and physiological shifts that brought on ***FEVERS***...........could I "awaken".
I'll be forward? Even with filmed min*ature black holes......an everyday reality now.......
.........., and even if I *were* to witness 'every' 'enemy' 'at' my path 'defeated' a 'million' 'times' 'over', this Infiniversal Routing Trial could have continued to have gone on for centuries, ***MILLENNIA**" even......... . Since I don't 'die', I could have.......been, in theory, stuck in this plane ***INDEFINITELY***............ .
I will not tell my Infiniverse-tier secrets online / on here, but alas..the point of this trial is ***NOT*** 'fighting'.
*Thinks of a metaphor, some point-generated...metaphors......realtime*.
Today......I now realize.....that even if I witness 'J*hov*h' 'defeated' '10' 'million' 'times', *that*.....in and of itself does not mean "moving on" from here.
'All' 'the' 'fights' 'were' 'distractions'..?
Seems the only way to ***SURVIVE*** and ***WIN*** this thing.....is to do the work, and face objective truths / embark on that work......by way of being free from 'ego'.
(*Perceived a caress from a mysterious presence IRL*)?
Yea. There is no way to win with a 'subanime' 'body'. That truth.....seems "built-in" to the core meaning of The Infiniversal Routing Trial.
Furthermore, there is no way to ***SURVIVE*** and ***WIN*** this thing with an '*ANIME*' 'body'. That ***SHOCKING*** truth......seems "built-in" to the core meaning and application of the Infiniversal Routing Trial.
Only a certain body.....with a certain physiology can not only face and withstand the ***gravity*** of The Infiniversal Routing Expanse, but too........form a sword....that can slice through it...and ***TRULY*** conclude the trial (thus allowing a rest from all the suffering, agony, and pain a triaker experiences).
These last III decades, I've been confused, and living in a fog.
That..even ***WITH*** access....to this mountain sanctuary house....in recent times.
If there is to be a "turning point" for my situation, it has to be now. And any time before now was just a warmup & practice for this moment.
Some truths, if not *all* truths, are unnegotiable. I truly understand now...that I can *not* win with 'sickly' and 'broken' 'bodies'. True existence, literally, has no place for me to be 'Ash' '/' 'Ichigo' '/' 'J_______'......'etc' (the 'b****s' that 'chase' after 'em 'be' 'd***ed')....... .
I'm in *deep* shock right now, but I'll get over it.
Reality has taught me a lesson this month.......... .
Either I can stay stuck here witnessing 'godawful' 'subanime' 'drama'..for more than a 'million' 'years'......whilst noting 'fake' 'friends' 'claim' a 'cool' and 'alpha 'man' 'at' me, *OR* I can accept the truth....., act on the truth, and walk across the victory line in my true form (because that is the only way to walk across or even *see* that line). That is all.
To not 'die', or to not be stuck witnessing subanime for more than a 'million' 'years', I *have* to design......& actualize....(*blinked after experiencing a sudden and kiss-like sensation*).
