I Will Never Accept 'Mortal' 'Limitations' / Reasons Why I Don't Talk About 'S**lor' 'M*on' Lately
The Infiniversal Routing Trial is the ultimate test.
The ultimate test of fitness, love, faith, determination, talent (*cringes*), intelligence, wisdom, and morals.
*Thinks solemnly for a moment*.
I.....I, to try to be honest, don't know if I am going to be able to win this thing..... .
(*Notices a sensation like intense and burning / glowing....worry....withih my fingernails*).
But I know this much. I will *NOT* accept......'mortal' 'limitations'. And I *did* *NOT* accept 'mortal' 'limitations'.
Maybe that is the basic step that any chance for me to win....will have to be predicated upon?
*Nods*.
Let's discuss.
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The Infiniversal Routing Trial, by default, means witnessing trillions of 'false' 'identities'.........'grafted' 'at' your existence.
You will literally note extremely powerful 'deities' 'dumping' 'false' 'realities' 'at' your core existence / your memories / your identity.
In my case, I note 'subanime' and 'anime' 'false' 'existences' '/' 'identities' 'dumped' 'at' me..., but alas....I refuse.
I went around dazed, disoriented, and in shock for over a decade...after the cosmic blast / tsunami event.
There was a deep struggle within me to discover / remember who...or what I am..., and through all of that...I witnessed 'bothersome' 'reset' 'events'..'/' 'forced' 'restarts' 'at' my timeline...that 'involved' 'S**lor' 'M**n'....(*cringe*).
Back then I went on instinct, and just clearly *didn't* want to be 'S*ilor' 'M**n', nor 'stuck' in some 'godawful' 'honeypot' 'trap'....'featuring'.....'dead' 'end' 'anime' 'world'. (*Cringes as recalls at 'S**lor' 'M*rs'....*).
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Honey_trapping
I didn't want some 'dubious' 'easy' 'finish'........ .
And I *REALLY* (ulgh!) (*goes a squeamish green*) did not want to be some 'vapid', 'stupid', 'solipsistic', and 'mentally' '/' 'emotionally' 'shallow' '**' '____________' 'type'.
S...so..., *what* was I gonna.....*do* ~~~~ ???
I meditated, I focused, and I did periodic illustrations through the decades.
And now...., after many illustrations, and waaaay waaaaaaay waaaaaaay more writings, I understand that my life depended on me not accepting 'S**lor' 'M**n'.
The one attests a 'false' 'identity' '&' 'timeline' offered at me by 'deity' 'scale' 'forces'..... .
The one, 'Us*gi' 'Ts*kino', 'inherently' 'mutilates' 'or' 'entirely' 'erases' at internal organs that I ***NEED*** in order to do my job & function.
Much like a 'beatup' 'truck' with no 'engine' is a 'derelict' 'husk', the 'body' of 'Usagi' 'Tsukino' 'is' 'an' 'empty' 'rotting' 'shell'?
(*Reels with squeamish nausea, and experiences joy and gladness that I did not have to smell 'that' 'body's' 'funk' (as of yet anyway)*).
All the worse, the fake body comes with a fake mind, and a fake soul... .
By not accepting 'Us*gi' 'Tsuk*no', I did not accept......'mutilation at, my soul, my body, or my emotions.
Me?
I have quite a grip on.....who I am now....
..., and I am learning to focus and direct the abilities that my true form / true self / true body provides. I am a lifeform that ventures the dark depths, and directs _______ _____________ of __________________ with ____ ________________.
Yea.
No more being embarrassed like I used to.
Too, I will not 'hate' my nature / the nature...that got me this far.
*Nods*.
My true nature, my true body, was apparently how I managed to survive at the 'Abraham*c' 'god's' 'onslaught' with no 'wounds' or 'damage'.
So things are going to shift from here..... .
Yea.
No disorientedly associating myself with genderless failure...weirdo XX chromosome types, or genderless failure...weirdo XY chromosome types.
*Shakes my head*.
I'll trudge around noting the Negro graft as usual for now, but I am going to strive bypass subanime and anime 'fake' 'identities'...as a whole...as soon as I get a chance.
(*Thinks about a sole starship in a infinite black or white expanse environment*).
I am not interested in anime worlds, and I am *CERTAINLY* not interested in 'anime' 'identities' 'grafted' 'at' my existence.
I do not want a 'fake' 'life', and some 'stupid'.....'easy' 'feeeeeelz'....... .
I am my own person with autonomy?
I don't need 'anime' 'worlds'.
The ultimate test of fitness, love, faith, determination, talent (*cringes*), intelligence, wisdom, and morals.
*Thinks solemnly for a moment*.
I.....I, to try to be honest, don't know if I am going to be able to win this thing..... .
(*Notices a sensation like intense and burning / glowing....worry....withih my fingernails*).
But I know this much. I will *NOT* accept......'mortal' 'limitations'. And I *did* *NOT* accept 'mortal' 'limitations'.
Maybe that is the basic step that any chance for me to win....will have to be predicated upon?
*Nods*.
Let's discuss.
---------------------------------
The Infiniversal Routing Trial, by default, means witnessing trillions of 'false' 'identities'.........'grafted' 'at' your existence.
You will literally note extremely powerful 'deities' 'dumping' 'false' 'realities' 'at' your core existence / your memories / your identity.
In my case, I note 'subanime' and 'anime' 'false' 'existences' '/' 'identities' 'dumped' 'at' me..., but alas....I refuse.
I went around dazed, disoriented, and in shock for over a decade...after the cosmic blast / tsunami event.
There was a deep struggle within me to discover / remember who...or what I am..., and through all of that...I witnessed 'bothersome' 'reset' 'events'..'/' 'forced' 'restarts' 'at' my timeline...that 'involved' 'S**lor' 'M**n'....(*cringe*).
Back then I went on instinct, and just clearly *didn't* want to be 'S*ilor' 'M**n', nor 'stuck' in some 'godawful' 'honeypot' 'trap'....'featuring'.....'dead' 'end' 'anime' 'world'. (*Cringes as recalls at 'S**lor' 'M*rs'....*).
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Honey_trapping
I didn't want some 'dubious' 'easy' 'finish'........ .
And I *REALLY* (ulgh!) (*goes a squeamish green*) did not want to be some 'vapid', 'stupid', 'solipsistic', and 'mentally' '/' 'emotionally' 'shallow' '**' '____________' 'type'.
S...so..., *what* was I gonna.....*do* ~~~~ ???
I meditated, I focused, and I did periodic illustrations through the decades.
And now...., after many illustrations, and waaaay waaaaaaay waaaaaaay more writings, I understand that my life depended on me not accepting 'S**lor' 'M**n'.
The one attests a 'false' 'identity' '&' 'timeline' offered at me by 'deity' 'scale' 'forces'..... .
The one, 'Us*gi' 'Ts*kino', 'inherently' 'mutilates' 'or' 'entirely' 'erases' at internal organs that I ***NEED*** in order to do my job & function.
Much like a 'beatup' 'truck' with no 'engine' is a 'derelict' 'husk', the 'body' of 'Usagi' 'Tsukino' 'is' 'an' 'empty' 'rotting' 'shell'?
(*Reels with squeamish nausea, and experiences joy and gladness that I did not have to smell 'that' 'body's' 'funk' (as of yet anyway)*).
All the worse, the fake body comes with a fake mind, and a fake soul... .
By not accepting 'Us*gi' 'Tsuk*no', I did not accept......'mutilation at, my soul, my body, or my emotions.
Me?
I have quite a grip on.....who I am now....
..., and I am learning to focus and direct the abilities that my true form / true self / true body provides. I am a lifeform that ventures the dark depths, and directs _______ _____________ of __________________ with ____ ________________.
Yea.
No more being embarrassed like I used to.
Too, I will not 'hate' my nature / the nature...that got me this far.
*Nods*.
My true nature, my true body, was apparently how I managed to survive at the 'Abraham*c' 'god's' 'onslaught' with no 'wounds' or 'damage'.
So things are going to shift from here..... .
Yea.
No disorientedly associating myself with genderless failure...weirdo XX chromosome types, or genderless failure...weirdo XY chromosome types.
*Shakes my head*.
I'll trudge around noting the Negro graft as usual for now, but I am going to strive bypass subanime and anime 'fake' 'identities'...as a whole...as soon as I get a chance.
(*Thinks about a sole starship in a infinite black or white expanse environment*).
I am not interested in anime worlds, and I am *CERTAINLY* not interested in 'anime' 'identities' 'grafted' 'at' my existence.
I do not want a 'fake' 'life', and some 'stupid'.....'easy' 'feeeeeelz'....... .
I am my own person with autonomy?
I don't need 'anime' 'worlds'.