Lol, typos from typing in a chilly house being what they are, I agree with the above impromptu post.
I am not giving up on the dual trial scenario though. But I am not condemning myself by it either........... .
I just can not and will not believe that horrible and terrifying stuff 'told' at me. Maybe I have to Code Blue, and / or flip the world, and see who was really talking to me all along...last year.
Yea, I just had an event this week where I witnessed a loveless and scary subanime Harley Quinn grafted at my perception of myself... . Maybe Dawn is trialing with me, but by gosh, to confirm that, we have to move beyond constantly witnessing subanime..... . The stuff is poison. Warps at our perception of ourselves, and the people we love.
Maybe if I release a certain amount of energy, I'll witness the dragonoid disappear, and see my beloved real Dawn was and has been there all along. Either way, dual trial scenario or not, the key is to keep working on myself and not fall for enemy "guilt traps" nor distractions..... .
I have to strive for greatness (*gulps*), even amidst absolute uncertainty (just like when I made the celibacy pledge when I witnessed 98/99).
"You have enemies? Why, it is the story of every man who has done a great deed or created a new idea. It is the cloud which thunders around everything that shines. Fame must have enemies, as light must have gnats. Do no bother yourself about it; disdain. Keep your mind serene as you keep your life clear. - Victor Hugo, Choses Vues 1849-1885"
"A man’s greatness can be measured by his enemies. - Don Piatt"
"You can always judge a man by the quality of his enemies. - Oscar Wilde"
"Judge a man by the reputation of his enemies. - Arabian Proverb"
"A man with no enemies is a man with no character. - Paul Newman"
I could never help mankind ***not*** because my "wording" or "grammar"......or "writing style" (excuses from the otakukin forum), I could never help mankind because mankind is depressed by default, and there is no cure nor help nor aid for depression O_O.............(*feels my fingernails glowing in shock*).
Subanime = depression........ .
Oh my gosh........ .
I am not depressed, so I must avoid mankind.....as to not be ***blamed*** for mankind's inherent depression.... . So, there is just no winning with depressed ones..... . (*Shakes my head in shock*).
So all my life choices, all the abilities that came of my life choices, are just an effect of me not being depressed. I did not possess a 'void' that had to be 'filled' with garbage...... .
Hence no alcohol, no sex, no being automatically drawn to evil / powerful / dangerous men, no need for "entertainment", and no interest in mankind's religions.
Yea, my headache this week involved a data processing boost. What was I thinking in the past? I was just trying to treat others as I wanted to be treated.., and I was clearly and purely dazed as such. Yea, mankind is not "others" to me (*winces, and feels my fingernails glowing in shock and shame*).
I am not giving up on the dual trial scenario though. But I am not condemning myself by it either........... .
I just can not and will not believe that horrible and terrifying stuff 'told' at me. Maybe I have to Code Blue, and / or flip the world, and see who was really talking to me all along...last year.
Yea, I just had an event this week where I witnessed a loveless and scary subanime Harley Quinn grafted at my perception of myself... . Maybe Dawn is trialing with me, but by gosh, to confirm that, we have to move beyond constantly witnessing subanime..... . The stuff is poison. Warps at our perception of ourselves, and the people we love.
Maybe if I release a certain amount of energy, I'll witness the dragonoid disappear, and see my beloved real Dawn was and has been there all along. Either way, dual trial scenario or not, the key is to keep working on myself
and not fall for enemy "guilt traps" nor distractions..... .
I have to strive for greatness (*gulps*), even amidst absolute uncertainty (just like when I made the celibacy pledge when I witnessed 98/99).
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"You have enemies? Why, it is the story of every man who has done a great deed or created a new idea. It is the cloud which thunders around everything that shines. Fame must have enemies, as light must have gnats. Do no bother yourself about it; disdain. Keep your mind serene as you keep your life clear.
- Victor Hugo, Choses Vues 1849-1885"
"A man’s greatness can be measured by his enemies.
- Don Piatt"
"You can always judge a man by the quality of his enemies.
- Oscar Wilde"
"Judge a man by the reputation of his enemies.
- Arabian Proverb"
"A man with no enemies is a man with no character.
- Paul Newman"
http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Quotes/EnemiesEqualsGreatness
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I could never help mankind ***not*** because my "wording" or "grammar"......or "writing style" (excuses from the otakukin forum), I could never help mankind because mankind is depressed by default, and there is no cure nor help nor aid for depression O_O.............(*feels my fingernails glowing in shock*).
Subanime = depression........ .
Oh my gosh........ .
I am not depressed, so I must avoid mankind.....as to not be ***blamed*** for mankind's inherent depression.... . So, there is just no winning with depressed ones..... . (*Shakes my head in shock*).
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Hence no alcohol, no sex, no being automatically drawn to evil / powerful / dangerous men, no need for "entertainment", and no interest in mankind's religions.
Yea, my headache this week involved a data processing boost. What was I thinking in the past? I was just trying to treat others as I wanted to be treated.., and I was clearly and purely dazed as such. Yea, mankind is not "others" to me (*winces, and feels my fingernails glowing in shock and shame*).
Depression is the 'root' of all evil.......... .
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