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[jaguar1211]

i can't sleep
using chris's new laptop I bought him and I am totally convinced
I am buying a laptop tomorrow.
i want a pink one.
i'm going to go to best buy tomorrow and get it.
on my lunch.

i need to sleep
i got sick from the oxycodions
i think it does that when i stay up to late

and thanks to my psych class i begin to think about the effects this is having on my brain
and the transmitters in my head.
neurons misfiring
it cant be good.

but the pain is gone.
blissfully i no longer hurt.

i hate training
i cant do anything i like to do and she is so slow
i had to take over the paperwork because i need to get shit done by specific times in order to do everything i need to do.
it's going to be a long last week
and three more days this week

i cant wait for my new laptop
i figure it'd be better than a desktop
considering i'm moving in with my parents
it's going to work out better for me in the long run
i think i'm going to buy a mouse though cause i dont care for the touch pads. this keyboard is super nice though.
i'm getting one with the built in web cam too so we can talk to each other hopefull while he is away and  i can see him not just hear him.

the carrie underwood concert was good.
we all got stoned before we went and my mom made me cry a few times

it's just starting to sink in i guess.
he's really leaving. i dont know why it hasent hit me sooner
and i dont know what i'll do when he's really gone
i'm just bankinngon the year flying by so it wont hurt as bad.

but my bed is so empty.