we should just say goodbye.

[jaguar1211]

Time
never ending
never enough
oh god.

things are so crazy
so hard
so helpless
I dont know what else to do but roll up my sleeves
chin up and get working
move
take charge
do what needs to be done
or at least try.

it's all pretty fucked up right now.
i feel like I have a plan
its all sorta half baked and gooey
but it's a step
it's a start
and I think i can do it.

I just wonder what else is going to happen on my way to my plans.
seems something always stops me drags me down.
I just keep pushing up through the quicksand only to get sucked back down
gasping for breath
choking on the muck.

from this moment on though
everyone can kinda fuck off.
I can't worry about your money problems or try helping you out when I cant even pay my own bills.
I am sorry I am but there's nothing I can do about it.

if you want to be around me then come on over but dont expect me to go running to you
I can't.
I dont have the time I dont have the money
and I dont know what else to do with you right now anyways.

WAKE UP!