-some times..things just seem to fall apart..when you least expect them too-
that is so true let me tell ya. it turned out realy good though. i guess i should explain thought the only people that i know of that reads this already know the tail....mandi and i had a "heated discussion" to put it lightly wenesday night. it ended in us take ing a break or breaking up i'm not sure which one we chose. so thursday and friday i tryed my hardest to get her back because i didnt want to lose her, the best thing to ever happen to me. i took her breaking up with me to truely see that. all of both those days i feared to worst. i thought i was never going to be able to look at mandi as i had always looked at her, as her boyfriend. but friday i asked her out thrice i believe it was and thrice she said no. she told me she would think on it and tell me her findings that night at the foot ball game. my heart has never felt so heavy. you know when you read a book and they say stuff like "left a hole in my chest where my heart once was" or "the pain in my heart was unbearable" i just thought those were symbolic but they realy happen. my heart realy did hurt thurday and friday. everytime i would think of mandi the pain would surge. i didnt think it possible but it realy happens.
well, that night she and sarah devised this little plan to smack me in the face (not literaly) and get me to ask mandi out again. so i did and she said yes. i have never been more happy in my life. it was like meeting again for the first time. we hung out for the rest of the game. i almost couldnt go to sleep that night i was so happy. i want to go running down the street screeming my love for her. i didnt though. i didnt want to get into trouble.
lets see. i know something else happened.....oh yeah i hacked most of my hair off. i went from about 4 inches of hair to 1. luke said i look like the naked poet from the movie a knights tale, which is pretty cool. that is the second time i was told i looked like some famous person. before i cut my hair off mandi told me i looked like the person from the movie piano. oh i love her so much. i hope she loves me the same as i love her. god she is so pretty too. the last two nights i went to bed with the biggest smile on my face. if someone came into my room and saw me they probably would have thought me ill in the head. but i wouldnt care. she makes me so happy.
well, i have to go use the facilities. ttyl.
well, that night she and sarah devised this little plan to smack me in the face (not literaly) and get me to ask mandi out again. so i did and she said yes. i have never been more happy in my life. it was like meeting again for the first time. we hung out for the rest of the game. i almost couldnt go to sleep that night i was so happy. i want to go running down the street screeming my love for her. i didnt though. i didnt want to get into trouble.
lets see. i know something else happened.....oh yeah i hacked most of my hair off. i went from about 4 inches of hair to 1. luke said i look like the naked poet from the movie a knights tale, which is pretty cool. that is the second time i was told i looked like some famous person. before i cut my hair off mandi told me i looked like the person from the movie piano. oh i love her so much. i hope she loves me the same as i love her. god she is so pretty too. the last two nights i went to bed with the biggest smile on my face. if someone came into my room and saw me they probably would have thought me ill in the head. but i wouldnt care. she makes me so happy.
well, i have to go use the facilities. ttyl.