Actual serious post: future thoughts, emphasis on optimisms

Mar 19, 2013 20:36

If you pay attentions to me here and/or on Twitter, you've probably noticed a healthy serving of anxious and pessimistic things I might say.  Alot of it is mostly true, but its also largely a side effect of me using the internet, and furry in general, as an outlet to let out stem, as as much as a recreational source.

I figure it'd be nice to post some of my thoughts on the future, with focus on the optimistic and good stuff.

I'd also like to use this as a way to communicate, especially to my closest friends, what my plans are for the future, without necessarily having to trouble them with bringing up these topics in person.

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When it comes to work, I'm pretty much in cruise control at this point.  My residency ends at the end of June, and aside from a few loose ends to tie up, I'm pretty much ready to move on.  My personal assessment is I think I've done a very good job the last few years, and I think I'm going to be good at what I do.  I think I have the skills, physical, mental, and interpersonal, to be confident I have a great chance to be excellent at my job.  I truly believe this.  The deficiencies I have I have plenty of time to work on, and I've proven to myself that I'm fast at learning.  Alot will come with experience.  Even though I often comment about it, I honestly don't regret doing what I'm doing.  I'm optimistic that when I retire I will have no regrets, and I wouldn't have done anything significantly different.  I wouldn't give up this job for any other job in the world (that I was capable of doing).

In August I will start my new job.  I chose a potentially more difficult job, which has its obvious pitfalls, but it'll test my abilities, and I will learn alot from it.  I'm not moving too far away from where I am now.  That was one of the biggest questions was where I would end up.  Ultimately I knew I had to be close to either friends and/or family, so it ended up being between Ohio in Texas.  The reasons are multi-factoral, but I'm happy that I'm gonna be close to my friends up here.  I'm truly sad that I won't see my family and friends in Texas as much as I could have, but I should have a decent amount of vacation time to still go to cons, and more importantly, visit home often.

One of the big pluses with this job is its only a one year path to partnership.  The first year I am strictly salaried.  After that, should they choose to keep me, they will offer me an equal partnership in the group.  That is an awesome situation to be in because I'm looking at this first year as a test drive.  If everything works out great, I like the group, they like me, and I'm happy living in that city, then I get to become a partner and my future will be bright.  If not, worst case is I got good experience, learned alot, I'm not committed to stay, and I'm free go find something better.  So the potential is still there for me to move to a happier location.  So I still got alot of flexibility on my side.  That's a very good thing.  The main thing I'm trying to communicate to everyone is this is not necessarily a permanent thing, all my eggs aren't in the basket just yet.

As long as things go as planned, the increase in my income will be a wonderful thing.  I know that money can't buy happiness, but I know that financial security can.  Being able to splurge here and there will be real nice.  Unfortunately I don't really have a dream car (if anything I used to want a yellow hummer... which you can't get new anymore), but I'm really really excited about the car I'm having built.  It was pretty much love at first sight, and I got to design it exactly as I wanted.  Super excited.  Also its kind of my reward for myself, and kind of symbolic of the fact that I've made it.

The other thing is I have no plans to get married.  I'm not going to have kids for sure.  Aside from my coworkers and my patients, my true family will be my parents, my sisters, and my friends.  I hope as long as I am alive and capable, I can do right by them.  I'm willing to make sacrifices if necessary to achieve that end.  I suppose for me that's the most noble thing I can achieve in my life.  Do my job well.  Be a positive force in the lives of the people I love most.  That's all.  I'm under no delusion I'll make any difference in the world as a whole, that's something reserved for the truly brilliant, or the truly altruistic.  And trust me, I (and I doubt any of you), are either of those things.

I'm in pretty good health.  I'm not thrilled about 30, but I'm glad that I'm healthy as I am, and so long as I can, I intend to stay this way.

So... all in all, things are looking good!  Furry Fiesta was largely a failure for me, but I'm looking forward to FCN, and I'm looking to seeing my friends there.  And I'm looking forward to many many happy experiences with my friends for years to come.  I'll always be here for you, in one way or the other.  Please don't forget that, even when it may not seem that way.  I'll try my best to remember it too...
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