The shitty week...
Ever woken up and just known something wasn't right, and that things were going to take an ugly spin?
So with everything going on and by everything i mean ( This is sstarting back almost 4 months ago when my sister, jennifer, got a wild hair up her ass and decided to tell me father EVERYTHING... she told him about my past of coke addiction, the sex, the parties, and the drug abuse on a daily basis. She says her reasons of doing it was because she was "scared" what might happen to me in the future. The twist is, the night before she told my dad this she told Maria i was going to get a "pay back from hell" all bc i told maria jennifer had cheated on her another part of the twist that proves my sister did this just out of spite and not concern is at the time when she told my dad i had split from the friends i had and stop using about 2months prior and was trying to over come my addictions.) Now to bring u up to date.. My father recently served my mom with papers to fight for custody *AGIAN* on and average this happens about 2-3 times a year, the same shit usually over money and chid support. Battling through my own problems and now the chances of me being riped from my home, my new friends and my new life have all taken a lot out of me. The worse part about all of this was how my sister whom ive always been so close with had betrayed me. She has done something so huge and so severe that i will never forgive her. To take my journals with private information and read them to a person who i hid it from. (my dad) to a person who could cause so much trouble. Anyways, ive been going through the possibilites of bring taken from my mom and evrything that means so much to me. These last 2weeks have given me some hope though. My mom and step dad have spoken and met in person with my father (which has never happened EVER before) and tryed to settle this in an adult maner. It seemed as though it might have worked... ofcourse there is a BUT to this story. again becase of my sister Jennifer the story may change yet again. Because of her personal problems and her unhappyness this may change. She says that "there is going to be shit said to fuck everyones life up" you know, some people may think.. eh its because its ur big sister that ur mad or becuase ur the little sisteror any of that other, but thats not it... jen and i have always been best friends, all our secrets out on the table and never one fight until 4months ago. The fact that she can back stab me the way she has shows me the few people i try to trust even fuck me over. I just dont know what to do any more. I hate being the chick whoes depressed all the time or being anti social. Its just so much shit is going on right now that i dont want to talk to anyone and i dont want to hang out after school. Right now im just so fucking confused and with the 1 thing im not confused about, has confused me the most in the past 2days. im just all fucked up in the head and i feel like crawling in a fetal postion and never waking up. i just want to wake up from this bad dream but every day i wake up it seems to be my reality.
on a better note, its almost here, my fav time of the year! YAY
My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Hauljaggedxedge goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as a whore.a_freyed_knot tricks you! You get a dead frog.bloodonyourhand gives you 1 green banana-flavoured hard candies.jaded_ivy gives you 5 pink tropical-flavoured jelly beans.kinkyrider86 gives you 16 light green root beer-flavoured miniature candy bars.lifeinafatsuit tricks you! You lose 21 pieces of candy!niggapleaze gives you 1 light yellow lemon-flavoured gummy bats.seperated gives you 6 yellow mint-flavoured jelly beans.stevoscreamo gives you 11 light blue tropical-flavoured jelly beans.turbogeek_ gives you 5 dark green cinnamon-flavoured hard candies.zentrickery tricks you! You lose 4 pieces of candy!jaggedxedge ends up with 20 pieces of candy, and a dead frog.Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.
So with everything going on and by everything i mean ( This is sstarting back almost 4 months ago when my sister, jennifer, got a wild hair up her ass and decided to tell me father EVERYTHING... she told him about my past of coke addiction, the sex, the parties, and the drug abuse on a daily basis. She says her reasons of doing it was because she was "scared" what might happen to me in the future. The twist is, the night before she told my dad this she told Maria i was going to get a "pay back from hell" all bc i told maria jennifer had cheated on her another part of the twist that proves my sister did this just out of spite and not concern is at the time when she told my dad i had split from the friends i had and stop using about 2months prior and was trying to over come my addictions.) Now to bring u up to date.. My father recently served my mom with papers to fight for custody *AGIAN* on and average this happens about 2-3 times a year, the same shit usually over money and chid support. Battling through my own problems and now the chances of me being riped from my home, my new friends and my new life have all taken a lot out of me. The worse part about all of this was how my sister whom ive always been so close with had betrayed me. She has done something so huge and so severe that i will never forgive her. To take my journals with private information and read them to a person who i hid it from. (my dad) to a person who could cause so much trouble. Anyways, ive been going through the possibilites of bring taken from my mom and evrything that means so much to me. These last 2weeks have given me some hope though. My mom and step dad have spoken and met in person with my father (which has never happened EVER before) and tryed to settle this in an adult maner. It seemed as though it might have worked... ofcourse there is a BUT to this story. again becase of my sister Jennifer the story may change yet again. Because of her personal problems and her unhappyness this may change. She says that "there is going to be shit said to fuck everyones life up" you know, some people may think.. eh its because its ur big sister that ur mad or becuase ur the little sisteror any of that other, but thats not it... jen and i have always been best friends, all our secrets out on the table and never one fight until 4months ago. The fact that she can back stab me the way she has shows me the few people i try to trust even fuck me over. I just dont know what to do any more. I hate being the chick whoes depressed all the time or being anti social. Its just so much shit is going on right now that i dont want to talk to anyone and i dont want to hang out after school. Right now im just so fucking confused and with the 1 thing im not confused about, has confused me the most in the past 2days. im just all fucked up in the head and i feel like crawling in a fetal postion and never waking up. i just want to wake up from this bad dream but every day i wake up it seems to be my reality.
on a better note, its almost here, my fav time of the year! YAY
My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Hauljaggedxedge goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as a whore.a_freyed_knot tricks you! You get a dead frog.bloodonyourhand gives you 1 green banana-flavoured hard candies.jaded_ivy gives you 5 pink tropical-flavoured jelly beans.kinkyrider86 gives you 16 light green root beer-flavoured miniature candy bars.lifeinafatsuit tricks you! You lose 21 pieces of candy!niggapleaze gives you 1 light yellow lemon-flavoured gummy bats.seperated gives you 6 yellow mint-flavoured jelly beans.stevoscreamo gives you 11 light blue tropical-flavoured jelly beans.turbogeek_ gives you 5 dark green cinnamon-flavoured hard candies.zentrickery tricks you! You lose 4 pieces of candy!jaggedxedge ends up with 20 pieces of candy, and a dead frog.Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.