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hii :) last night sucked really really bad. well, i had fun going to robert's. i chilled there for a couple of hours. i played pool, listened to some very good music, looked at the stars, discussed a whole bunch of good stuff w/ judy & mike and i watched robert fall :D that was funny. julian was a little happy ;) and when i told judy about my first "semi-fight" i was reminded that that was the first time i met JJ and i've known him and everyone else for 6 years. that's a long time. i'm really thankful that i have such good friends who have stuck by me, and even come back into my life when i thought they wouldn't. ok enough of that. anywho, so yeah that was a nice visit & i came home to watch SATC. that's when the suckiness began. i had the worst cramps ever. like...ouch! i tried to go to sleep but i ended up waking up at 5 in the morning, having to wake my mom up to ask her for advil. we didn't have any so i was about to cry but she insisted on going to the store to buy me some. so my mother drove all the way to the store at 5 in the morning just to get her daughter medicine so i'd feel better. isn't she the greatest? haha so yes i felt better & went to sleep. then i woke up, popped a few more pills and went shopping :) i bought a cute purse, a shirt, a Music=Life braclet, and a cool belt. after the mall we ate at applebee's and now i'm here.
i don't think i'm doing anything tonight. i'm tired & in that "i need to think about everything" mood. maybe it'll do me some good.
man i was sooo mad yesterday. i was so mad that i cried. i didn't know a stupid i/m conversation could anger me into tears but it did and i hope he's happy. i hope he knows how much he hurt me and how much i don't need to know what he hates about me because i'm NOT going to ever change. i hope this "friend" knows that good people don't do that to each other. if you care about a person you're not supposed to look for reasons to dislike them. i'm not the one who's changed, you are. you're all of a sudden too mature to put up with my shit? i feel sorry for you if you're going to be like that with me, but it's ok because i know you don't care anyway.
yeah i didn't mean to go on and on about that shit just then, but i'm not gonna be a little chicken shit and erase it so it's going to stay.
i haven't talked to bestest in 3 days. it's weird. rach3L called from chicago and asked for my adress so i'm thinking that she's gonna send me a suprise :) i hope she's having fun. okay i think i'm done. have a good night, everyone <3
i don't think i'm doing anything tonight. i'm tired & in that "i need to think about everything" mood. maybe it'll do me some good.
man i was sooo mad yesterday. i was so mad that i cried. i didn't know a stupid i/m conversation could anger me into tears but it did and i hope he's happy. i hope he knows how much he hurt me and how much i don't need to know what he hates about me because i'm NOT going to ever change. i hope this "friend" knows that good people don't do that to each other. if you care about a person you're not supposed to look for reasons to dislike them. i'm not the one who's changed, you are. you're all of a sudden too mature to put up with my shit? i feel sorry for you if you're going to be like that with me, but it's ok because i know you don't care anyway.
yeah i didn't mean to go on and on about that shit just then, but i'm not gonna be a little chicken shit and erase it so it's going to stay.
i haven't talked to bestest in 3 days. it's weird. rach3L called from chicago and asked for my adress so i'm thinking that she's gonna send me a suprise :) i hope she's having fun. okay i think i'm done. have a good night, everyone <3