anxiety
i was at work today, getting ready to leave and i went to look at my book to see what is up for next week. while doing this, i realized that the election is less than a week and a half away.
so i started having a panic attack, and started going off on republicans and the conservative neighborhood i work in (in a not so nice mannor). i'm usually really good at keeping my mouth shut at work, but for me panic couples sometimes with tourettes. so after a minute or two long rant, kirsti shot me a MEAN look (which she has never never never never done) that slapped me back into reality and i realized what i had done.
i fought off tears and took some meds and calmed down after a half hour or so.
SO everything is OK and kirsti's not mad but i hate that my anxiety gets me in so much trouble! it's like any filter from my brain to my mouth goes away and i just say whatever and don't even realize what i've said until it's already out of my mouth. it sucks.
i appologized to the girls in there, and told them how close i was to the attacks on sept. 11th, and that it was just my fear of re-living that that made me act all crazy, but i know i freaked them out.
WHATEVER.
PANIC ATTACKS, I WILL GET YOU SOME DAY.
as for people voting for bush, odds are few of them have ever actually experienced a terrorist attack, and as far as i'm concerned, they deserve the brunt of the next one, NOT ME i've been there done that.
so i started having a panic attack, and started going off on republicans and the conservative neighborhood i work in (in a not so nice mannor). i'm usually really good at keeping my mouth shut at work, but for me panic couples sometimes with tourettes. so after a minute or two long rant, kirsti shot me a MEAN look (which she has never never never never done) that slapped me back into reality and i realized what i had done.
i fought off tears and took some meds and calmed down after a half hour or so.
SO everything is OK and kirsti's not mad but i hate that my anxiety gets me in so much trouble! it's like any filter from my brain to my mouth goes away and i just say whatever and don't even realize what i've said until it's already out of my mouth. it sucks.
i appologized to the girls in there, and told them how close i was to the attacks on sept. 11th, and that it was just my fear of re-living that that made me act all crazy, but i know i freaked them out.
WHATEVER.
PANIC ATTACKS, I WILL GET YOU SOME DAY.
as for people voting for bush, odds are few of them have ever actually experienced a terrorist attack, and as far as i'm concerned, they deserve the brunt of the next one, NOT ME i've been there done that.