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It isn't that I'm not here, or dead or anything. I am lurking.
It's just a serious cat has my tongue.
I really really don't have much to say, and don't know what to tell other people about their posts.
But I'll attempt a journal entry...or something.
As has always been the case in my life, seldom 6 months goes by, much less a year, before everything changes. I spoze its relative, used to be where I lived, what I was doing, both work and otherwise, and who I was hanging with.
There was that couple of years about a decade ago when I was a happily married new parent...
But now the where I live doesn't seem to change: same place for over 12 years. What I am doing, both work and otherwise, and who I am spending time with has changed dramatically.
I work and go home. I spend all my time with sons or Jennie. I seldom am at the bar, although I do drink a lot at home. I don't listen to music much, save Jennie's constant Johnny Cash.
I'm not complaining. My house is much cleaner, I'm getting certain needs met very well, and I'm not interested in socializing or talking to anybody. I have 500 daytime minutes on my phone. I used maybe 15 or 20 last month.
Who would I call and what would I say. Come visit? I'll visit you? Neither of those is going to happen. What's up? SOS, prolly for all of us. Really, is anything new happening at all?
Yeah, I'm sad about change at times. I miss my best friend/soulmate/partner in gothy splendor...but I'm not going to be sad its over, I'm going to be pleased it happened.
blah blah blah.
See how it always turns into the same old song and dance. Its really no wonder I don't bother anymore.
It's just a serious cat has my tongue.
I really really don't have much to say, and don't know what to tell other people about their posts.
But I'll attempt a journal entry...or something.
As has always been the case in my life, seldom 6 months goes by, much less a year, before everything changes. I spoze its relative, used to be where I lived, what I was doing, both work and otherwise, and who I was hanging with.
There was that couple of years about a decade ago when I was a happily married new parent...
But now the where I live doesn't seem to change: same place for over 12 years. What I am doing, both work and otherwise, and who I am spending time with has changed dramatically.
I work and go home. I spend all my time with sons or Jennie. I seldom am at the bar, although I do drink a lot at home. I don't listen to music much, save Jennie's constant Johnny Cash.
I'm not complaining. My house is much cleaner, I'm getting certain needs met very well, and I'm not interested in socializing or talking to anybody. I have 500 daytime minutes on my phone. I used maybe 15 or 20 last month.
Who would I call and what would I say. Come visit? I'll visit you? Neither of those is going to happen. What's up? SOS, prolly for all of us. Really, is anything new happening at all?
Yeah, I'm sad about change at times. I miss my best friend/soulmate/partner in gothy splendor...but I'm not going to be sad its over, I'm going to be pleased it happened.
blah blah blah.
See how it always turns into the same old song and dance. Its really no wonder I don't bother anymore.