god....why?
why the fuck does shit like this happen to me?
is it karma?
have i been doing bad things to others without realizing it?
i pissed off 3 people today. as in, they aren't talking to me. how did i manage that? it's not like i did anything major. i have absolutely no intention of hurting anyone. and i'm so sorry that i did.
i'm so tired of drama. you know what completely sucks? thursday morning i had a huge fight with my mom before school about this project that she wouldn't help me with (i ended up asking mr. schlemmer to help me instead) and she got pissed off. and so i came to school, and i was sobbing because i had just woken up and everyone was yelling at me, and because i'm just so sick of fighting with my mom over every stupid little thing, and my friend sandy came up. and all i could think about as she was asking me what was wrong was "this isn't supposed to be like this. i'm not supposed to be the one asking for a little support. it's never ever like this, i'm the one everyone comes to with their problems".
and you know what? once in a while i'd like to feel like i'm appreciated. like people actually see me. fuck being invisible. fuck being hung up on. fuck boyfriends not calling. fuck all of this.
i'm done with living.
is it karma?
have i been doing bad things to others without realizing it?
i pissed off 3 people today. as in, they aren't talking to me. how did i manage that? it's not like i did anything major. i have absolutely no intention of hurting anyone. and i'm so sorry that i did.
i'm so tired of drama. you know what completely sucks? thursday morning i had a huge fight with my mom before school about this project that she wouldn't help me with (i ended up asking mr. schlemmer to help me instead) and she got pissed off. and so i came to school, and i was sobbing because i had just woken up and everyone was yelling at me, and because i'm just so sick of fighting with my mom over every stupid little thing, and my friend sandy came up. and all i could think about as she was asking me what was wrong was "this isn't supposed to be like this. i'm not supposed to be the one asking for a little support. it's never ever like this, i'm the one everyone comes to with their problems".
and you know what? once in a while i'd like to feel like i'm appreciated. like people actually see me. fuck being invisible. fuck being hung up on. fuck boyfriends not calling. fuck all of this.
i'm done with living.