To: mi papa
This has been bugging me a lot lately (gee, look at the time).
I adore you. Shit, frankly I worship you.
You are someone I consider to be a true man in this world of "animal like" men. You will never see this, I know, but it deserves to be said.
I love ya, I really do. I consider YOU to be my father -
not that ill tempered sack of DNA that shot his little men into my
mothers egg-broiler. It would be near impossible to tell you this (I have tried though).
I never told you why I really left home, even though I know that is the root of the freaky problems we now have. I still won't tell you either :P~
I just wish you could know that:
1. I really do love and admire the shit outta you.
2. Your opinion of me is tied at the number one position with my grandmother. I feel shamefully accountable to you in regards to my failures and succsesses.
3. You gave me more than I ever thought possible: family.
3b. In the small amount of time I was with my McB family, I learned more about love, family, and home than I ever imagined I could.
I wish I could visit you more. There are times when I miss your (and mama's) council, witty banter, and even critisizm more than the my sanity. I know you say, "well if we mean so much to him, why don't we ever see him?" (as reported by the eldest). But showing you the way I feel is sooooooooooooooo hard.
Hell, remember last fathers day when I actually tried to hug you? Akward to say the least. Up until then The closest we had ever been was a handshake when I graduated from High School. So I guess what it all boils down to is that I care about you... I really do.
But hell you won't ever see this hehe. (But I do feel better now.)
I adore you. Shit, frankly I worship you.
You are someone I consider to be a true man in this world of "animal like" men. You will never see this, I know, but it deserves to be said.
I love ya, I really do. I consider YOU to be my father -
not that ill tempered sack of DNA that shot his little men into my
mothers egg-broiler. It would be near impossible to tell you this (I have tried though).
I never told you why I really left home, even though I know that is the root of the freaky problems we now have. I still won't tell you either :P~
I just wish you could know that:
1. I really do love and admire the shit outta you.
2. Your opinion of me is tied at the number one position with my grandmother. I feel shamefully accountable to you in regards to my failures and succsesses.
3. You gave me more than I ever thought possible: family.
3b. In the small amount of time I was with my McB family, I learned more about love, family, and home than I ever imagined I could.
I wish I could visit you more. There are times when I miss your (and mama's) council, witty banter, and even critisizm more than the my sanity. I know you say, "well if we mean so much to him, why don't we ever see him?" (as reported by the eldest). But showing you the way I feel is sooooooooooooooo hard.
Hell, remember last fathers day when I actually tried to hug you? Akward to say the least. Up until then The closest we had ever been was a handshake when I graduated from High School. So I guess what it all boils down to is that I care about you... I really do.
But hell you won't ever see this hehe. (But I do feel better now.)