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enough is enough i am so tired of my ingrwat mother my worthless father and being miles away from anyone that gives a damn. i am tired of being belittled and tired of this bullshit. i just want a place that i belong and a place for me to feel safe...home isn't a home its just a place to put my shit in as they said in garden state. my job sucks my family sucks my school ...well thats alright i guess but i am just so fucking tired of this shit.
in other news. why is it all the women at my work find me so darn attractive? i try acting like an idiot and it fails i try acting like i normally do it fails i try acting like myself...well you don't wanna know. basicly the only girl that doesn't like me is named nicole...she seems nice and i like her alot we are friends and all but she gets so anoyed by me...i suppose its cause she reminds me of fayth so much...maybe being alone is finally getting to me maybe im just insane or maybe im just an emo at heart ... then again seth did say i am one of the most romantic people he knows...so maybe it is just that part of me showing up finally *sighs* well who cares i sure as hell don't. i have never been the type to show my real feelings anyway. just some fake ass ones and a stupid act to get by.
in other news. why is it all the women at my work find me so darn attractive? i try acting like an idiot and it fails i try acting like i normally do it fails i try acting like myself...well you don't wanna know. basicly the only girl that doesn't like me is named nicole...she seems nice and i like her alot we are friends and all but she gets so anoyed by me...i suppose its cause she reminds me of fayth so much...maybe being alone is finally getting to me maybe im just insane or maybe im just an emo at heart ... then again seth did say i am one of the most romantic people he knows...so maybe it is just that part of me showing up finally *sighs* well who cares i sure as hell don't. i have never been the type to show my real feelings anyway. just some fake ass ones and a stupid act to get by.