Time passing...
Yeah it´s been soooo long since I haven´t write here, but sooo many things had happend to me, good ones mostly! ^_^... today I was at work just talking to my friend there and the "time" issue came into the conversaton... and man I realized how many great thigs I have and I had achived along this year...
I remembered how I started this year... I was feeling so sad and I was so hurted that by the time xmas and new years eve came I was like in an static state... I was like floting in the air so dissappointed and mad at the world, but the saddest thing is that I was so regretful, never I had experienced that feeling so bad before in my life =`(... I had nothing that could made me smile or feel nice, I didn´t even turned on the radio or the tv, not that I didn´t like them or that I was that depressed, but really at one point I realized how much of myself and my identity I´ve lost or should I say I dare to let it went away =(, it was like "omg I don´t know how to have fun and worst I don´t know how to enjoy my life and the barely few things I do..." with the help of everybody that cares for me I started to get over everything, oh it toke me a lot of courage and patience (the worst because I completely lack of it ha ha, but I had to have it there)...
Suddenly one day I found myself watching cartoons... cartoons!? yes, animes to be exact and one captivated my attention... it was love at fist sight! I felt so great and I dare to say: alive again! My heart had a lot of time since the last time it beated so hard! and a smile came out and I felt happy!! WOW I was rescued! I became an obssesed fan of the GBs!! and everything and I mean everything started there, my life has been having sense ever since that day... `^_^!
Now almost a year had passed, and I treasure and value all that I have now, because I went from cero to a hundred in just a few months, now I remember the scary girl I was all isolated and dissappointed over everything, now I can see myself with proud because I cannot have better friends and I mean real friends! whose are the people that surrounds me (even when they´re far `^_^) that I consider my family and had been there with me, all the things I like and LOVE that give me the fantasy I need and of course the food to my soul (that incredible voice and the notes of that bass) and a crazy shared obssesion that can translate into an incredible friendship I never dreamed of... I´m so thankful...
I dare say I´m lucky and happy!
So I guess I´ll start this new year way better and with a lot of more wishes for it, funny as it sound they really work for me, I stood up for my new years wishes that I made last year and I could stay true to them (well maybe I changed one or two, but they weren´t that big deal hee hee) I hope I can get my tattoo done next year, that I couldn´t make it for this one but not because I didn´t want to, it´s just that I couldn´t save enough to pay for it, damn they´re expensive =/... still it will give more time to think about it, something that´s goig to be there for all my life "printed" on my skin... my boss tells me I shouldn´t do it (what else can he tell me, he´s like my father!!) but I guess he knows me so well, just as I know myself and yes sometimes the "what if I get tired of it?" question has come to my mind... I´m a very changing person, you know, I change my hair color very often, the design of my eyebrows, the color of my lips or the way I´m makingup, my hair cut changes a lot too... so sometimes I feel a little hesitating about the tattoo =/ and when I get tired of something I just can´t wait to change it and fast! One day I was at work and I toke a look at the mirror and I just don´t know what happened that my eyebrows suddenly seemed awful to me! so you had me there actually at the front desk infront of everybody changing the way they were and even putting some makeup on them!! ha ha ha I was so into it, and it toke me about an hour to put them in some way I liked... so! back to the tattoo, I know I have to have one, I´d love to have one, but I really need to think a lot about how is it going to be so I won´t get tired of it...
I´m out now, tomorrow is a special day... I´m sending some GREAT! gifts! hee hee!! **excited** but I promised I wont spoil! not even in my journal, but OMG I´m dying for them to be there already... I know she´s gonna love them!!
Be talking soon !
I remembered how I started this year... I was feeling so sad and I was so hurted that by the time xmas and new years eve came I was like in an static state... I was like floting in the air so dissappointed and mad at the world, but the saddest thing is that I was so regretful, never I had experienced that feeling so bad before in my life =`(... I had nothing that could made me smile or feel nice, I didn´t even turned on the radio or the tv, not that I didn´t like them or that I was that depressed, but really at one point I realized how much of myself and my identity I´ve lost or should I say I dare to let it went away =(, it was like "omg I don´t know how to have fun and worst I don´t know how to enjoy my life and the barely few things I do..." with the help of everybody that cares for me I started to get over everything, oh it toke me a lot of courage and patience (the worst because I completely lack of it ha ha, but I had to have it there)...
Suddenly one day I found myself watching cartoons... cartoons!? yes, animes to be exact and one captivated my attention... it was love at fist sight! I felt so great and I dare to say: alive again! My heart had a lot of time since the last time it beated so hard! and a smile came out and I felt happy!! WOW I was rescued! I became an obssesed fan of the GBs!! and everything and I mean everything started there, my life has been having sense ever since that day... `^_^!
Now almost a year had passed, and I treasure and value all that I have now, because I went from cero to a hundred in just a few months, now I remember the scary girl I was all isolated and dissappointed over everything, now I can see myself with proud because I cannot have better friends and I mean real friends! whose are the people that surrounds me (even when they´re far `^_^) that I consider my family and had been there with me, all the things I like and LOVE that give me the fantasy I need and of course the food to my soul (that incredible voice and the notes of that bass) and a crazy shared obssesion that can translate into an incredible friendship I never dreamed of... I´m so thankful...
I dare say I´m lucky and happy!
So I guess I´ll start this new year way better and with a lot of more wishes for it, funny as it sound they really work for me, I stood up for my new years wishes that I made last year and I could stay true to them (well maybe I changed one or two, but they weren´t that big deal hee hee) I hope I can get my tattoo done next year, that I couldn´t make it for this one but not because I didn´t want to, it´s just that I couldn´t save enough to pay for it, damn they´re expensive =/... still it will give more time to think about it, something that´s goig to be there for all my life "printed" on my skin... my boss tells me I shouldn´t do it (what else can he tell me, he´s like my father!!) but I guess he knows me so well, just as I know myself and yes sometimes the "what if I get tired of it?" question has come to my mind... I´m a very changing person, you know, I change my hair color very often, the design of my eyebrows, the color of my lips or the way I´m makingup, my hair cut changes a lot too... so sometimes I feel a little hesitating about the tattoo =/ and when I get tired of something I just can´t wait to change it and fast! One day I was at work and I toke a look at the mirror and I just don´t know what happened that my eyebrows suddenly seemed awful to me! so you had me there actually at the front desk infront of everybody changing the way they were and even putting some makeup on them!! ha ha ha I was so into it, and it toke me about an hour to put them in some way I liked... so! back to the tattoo, I know I have to have one, I´d love to have one, but I really need to think a lot about how is it going to be so I won´t get tired of it...
I´m out now, tomorrow is a special day... I´m sending some GREAT! gifts! hee hee!! **excited** but I promised I wont spoil! not even in my journal, but OMG I´m dying for them to be there already... I know she´s gonna love them!!
Be talking soon !