RantfuckinRant
I can't believe you even have the nerve to call me, or request via drewskee that I call you.
You never once asked how I felt,
Was I ok?
Am I scared?
Did you tell me everythings going to be alright?
No...
No...
You just call to compare scars..
You call to say that you lost one of your children and you need us near,
As if I didnt love my brother too,
As if I am not currently fighting thyroid cancer that spread to my lymph nodes.
Im also your child.
Your arrogance and utter sociopath tendencies make me sick,
you are not my family,
the only reason I bare seeing you every 4 years or so, is because i love my uncles,aunts,cousins, grandma and grandpa.
I cant imagine what stupid shit you'd say if i even brought up that my mothers boyfriend gave me flowers when i went into a life threatening surgery, and you couldnt be bothered to pick up the phone.
"I didnt have the money we're hurting real bad right now blah de fuckin blah"
Not bad enough to afford cocaine and beers so you can party on your oxys, right dad?
As many times as I say anything that makes sense to your face you wont hear it.
I dont give a fuck that im too old to be dwelling over my dead beat dad.
But this hurt, I always knew he did not care, but this was a real bitch slap of reality that was well needed to completely severe those fucking ties.
I understand what its like to be an addict, I dont understand what its like to have children.
I'll forgive some of this because you are an addict, you hate yourself.
But you've done this to yourself, you cant treat people like toilet paper,
rub your shit on them and flush them down the drain. You have caused your own misery, and you are getting old now, is it creeping in? The fact you havent been such a nice person? Are you scared to be alone? I bet you are.. i bet its clawing at you.
But you wont die alone, No one deserves to.
Andrew has a huge heart and he'll be there no matter how many times you call his mother a whore and try to fight him on the front lawn. You are a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge fucking piece of shitty shitty trashy shit !!!!!
I love my little brother and I cant stand how much you hurt him through the years,
Your misery will not be short lived.
Im so fortunate for my mother who is 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000x the person/mom/dad/caregiver/lover/nurturer/provider/protector
You will ever be.
I cant express how much I love my mother, she is so very strong and we have been through so much as a family, things I dare not speak of.
I think I feel better..Im glad to start feeling again..Even if they arent the "good" feelings.
Feeling anything is a wonderful thing for me :)