WTF?????
I know my brain has been screwed with, therefore, my mind must have suffered as well. I'm not talking about memories or pain and how that can play with the mind. I am talking about basic everyday intelligence, or lack there of, as must be the case with me.
Against my better judgment, (more about that another time), I went to see a therapist...again. With my kidneys in jeopardy and all the bombardment of deep seeded memories lately, I thought it might help. Mistake.
After the perfunctory welcoming niceties, and the standard, "How are you today." (notice the period, not a question mark), and after that annoying silence while he reads my info, that he has already read, he looks up and asks, "What is it like to be tortured?" (that is a question mark).
The question catches me off guard. "uh, what?" I'm baffled.
"What is it like to be tortured?" I'm looking for a hint that this guy is playing with me, but nothing in his behavior indicates that he is anything but dead-on serious. I'm stumped. Is he looking for some standard psychological answer? Is there one? Tell me please if there is, it would make my life so much easier.
"Ummm...bad?" I ask. He then asks me if I could be a little more specific and I pick up the familiar tone. I get it. Again, it was slow to come, but better late then never.
"Yes. I can be very specific." The bitch is taking over. "But the door has to be unlocked before it came be opened!"
I always remember how to spell therapist...the rapist.
WTF?????