Because I love you 2/3
Doctor : Mr. Kim?
Junsu : Yes, I am Mr. Kim Junsu. What happened to my brother? WHERE IS HE?
Doctor : He is still in the operation theatre. We're trying our best. But please calm down or else I won't be able to tell you his condition.
Junsu : Wha- ? Is he... He'll not die right? Will he doctor? *eyes tearing up*
Doctor : As I said before, we're trying our best. He is in a really critical state. His head and the right side of his body was injured badly. So I am afraid...
Junsu : What is it doctor?
Doctor : I am sorry to inform you this but we believe that he has become partially paralyzed. We can't say anything until the operation is done. And his friend is...
Junsu : Chang - Changmin? He was with Jae? How is he?
Doctor : He is unconcious. Some minor cuts and two of them needed stitches. But he is fine.
Junsu : Fine? Wasn't he in the car? Then how?
Doctor : No he wasn't in the car. I think he jumped out of the car just before tha crash.
Junsu : He'll never do that. He'll never leave Jaejoong like that. *whispers*
Doctor : Mr. Junsu? You need to sigh this paper.
Junsu : What are this for?
Doctor : It's a risky operation and anything can happen. A family member needs to sign this paper to agree to the tersm and conditions that if anything bad happens to the patient it won't be hospital's responsibility.
Junsu : What do you mean by if anything bad happens? He'll just be partially paralysed right? And hospital won't be responsible for that. It was because of the accident right?
Doctor : Well... As I said before his head was also badly injured. And anything can happen in that kind of operations. The patient may even lose his eye sight. Please sign this papers. We don't have time. We have to start the operation as soon as possible or it might be too late.
Junsu : *signs the papers* Doctor? Please don't let him die. Save him. Just keep in mind that you're saving two lives. If anything happens to Jae the other boy won't be able to live. He'll die doctor...*sobs* Save them... Please...*sobs*
Doctor : We'll try our best Mr. Junsu. *sighs and leaves*
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Changmin : WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY HE IS DEAD?
Nurse : he died yesterday. The doct -
Changmin : YOU ARE LYING. TELL ME WHERE HE IS. NOW.
Nurse : Mr. Shim please calm down. Don't get excited. You should go back to sle -
Changmin : WHERE IS JAEJOONG? TELL ME NOW. *starts throwing random things in the room*
Nurse : Mr. Shim you need to -
Doctor : What is going on here?
Nurse : Sir, he got excited after hearing about Mr. Kim.
Doctor : Bring me an I.V. injection. Right now.
Nurse : Yes sir. *runs out of the room*
Doctor : Mr. Shim... Shim Cahngmin. *holds his hands to prevent him from throwing things*
Changmin : WHERE IS HE DOCTOR? WHERE THE HELL IS HE?
Doctor : If you want me to talk then you have to calm down first.
Changmin : Where is he? Please tell me. What have you done to him? Why is the nurse saying he is dead? Doctor please tell me where he is. I want to see him. I'll die if I don't get to see him right now. Please doctor. *breaks down in tears*
Doctor : Ok yes. I admit that the nurse was lying. Mr. Jaejoong didn't die.
Changmin : Then? Why did the nurse lie to me?
Doctor : Because that's what Mr. Jaejoong wanted us to tell you.
Changmin : What? Why is he doing this to me? Where is that stupid man? I want to see him right now.
Doctor : I am afraid you can't see him Mr. Shim.
Changmin : Why? Is he in I.C.U? I'll just see him from a far doctor. But let me see him. I really need to see him.Please?
Doctor : I wish I could grant your wish Mr. Shim. But he is not here anymore. He left.
Changmin : Left? LEFT? *frowns* What do u mean by he left? He'll never leave me alone in this state. YOU'RE LYING. YOU ALL ARE LIARS.
Doctor : Mr. Shim.. Mr. Shim, please calm down.
Changmin : He can't leave me. He won't...
Nurse : Doctor... here. *hands the injection*
Doctor : *injects the medicine into his body* You need more sleep. *turns to leave the room*
Changmin : *Catches the doctor's hand* Where did he go?
Doctor : Well... I am not sure. He left with his cousin Mr. Kim Junsu yesterday. They said they'll go abroad for better treatment. But didn't tell me where.
Changmin : Doctor? Do me a last favor. How is he? Is he fine? I am guessing he is not. That's why he left me. Tell me everything. Please? *pleads with sleepy eyes*
Doctor : He... Mr. Jaejoong is partially paralyzed now. The right part of his body doesn't work properly. With regular practise and exercise he'll be able to move his body parts. But it won't be the same anymore. He can't give pressure on his right hand or leg. He didn't want us to tell you about his condition and when we told him about your panic attacks and that we had to give you sleeping medicines to calm you down he requested us to keep you unconcious for another day so that he can leave without you knowing about it. I am sorry Mr. Shim. I am really sorry.
Changmin : He is soooo stupid. So soo sooo stupid. *cries harder* How am I supposed to live like this? I hate him... I hate him... hate him... ha- *falls asleep*
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6 years later...
Changmin : Hello?
Yoochun : Changmin-ah.. They are here...
Changmin : *silence*
Yoochun : Junsu called me today. They are going to be here for the weekend. They are going back to U.S.A on Monday.
Changmin : *silence*
Yoochun : I asked him about Jaejoong. He is better now. He can walk now. As in he takes help of cratches. Can't put much pressure but still. Something is better than nothing right?
Changmin : *silence*
Yoochun : God damn it Changmin. SAY SOMETHING.
Changmin : What do you want me to say?
Yoochun : Something... Anything. Do you want to go with me?
Changmin : No. He didn't call me which can only mean one thing. He doesn't want to meet me.
Yoochun : But Chang -
Changmin : Hyung, I am busy. I'll call you later ok? *hangs up the phone and starts sobbing*
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Sunday night...
Junsu : Jaejoong Hyung.. Are you sure you'll be fine alone?
Jaejoong : Junsu I swear if you ask me the same question again I'll NOT LET YOU GO.
Junsu : Sorry Hyung. It's just I am worried you know. There's no one to help you in this hotel room.
Jaejoong : Ok may be not in the hotel room. But they are only a call away. If I need help I'll call the receiption and ask for help ok? Stop worrying... and just gooo...
Junsu : ok ok going...*walks towards the door*
Jaejoong : Have fun with your boyfriend Junsu. You don't know when you'll see him next time. *laughs*
Junsu : *turns around, comes near the bed and sits besides Jaejoong* Hyung... Why don't you call Changmin?
Jaejoong : NO.
Junsu : Hyung... I know you still love him. and you need him the most right now. Why are you being so stubborn?
Jaejoong : Junsu... Didn't Chunnie tell you the other day that Minnie know we are here? And he even refused to meet me. Not that I am complaining or angry. I am just glad he has moved on in life. He is busy with his work and stuffs. And may be he'll get married in a year or two. I don't want to pull him back now you know. I don't want to make him remember about the past... about us... about me... It may ruin everything.
Junsu : But hyung... What is he still loves you and wants you back. But waiting for you to make the first move? Won't you regret this then? not having him by your side?
Jaejoong : I can't have him Junsu. I am nothing I was back then. The reasons Changmin fell in love with me... I have nothing left in me anymore... I can't cook for him anymore... Can't satisfy his sexual needs... I CAN'T TAKE CARE OF HIM JUNSU... I never could actually... I was stupid. I thought I could make him the happiest man on earth. But I was about to kill him. He could be dead now because of me Junsu. He is better off without me. He is a really nice person and deserves to be the happiest man on earth. I can't give him anything. I don't deserve him. Never did... I was just stupid and childish... But thank you sooo much God for opening my eyes and let me see the reality. I was going to make such a big mistake. I am sure he could be never happy with me.
Junsu : HYUNG STOPP! Stop ok? It was an accident. Stop blaming yourself for it. It's been six years. I am sure Changmin never thought about it like this. If he is angry with you it's because you left without saying a word. Not because you he blame you for that accident or anything ok? So stop it... And I am sure you both could have been married by now if you didn't run away that time and may -
Jaejoong : Exactly.. I know how Changmin is and I am sure he would have accepted me like that without saying a word and I didn't want that Junsu. I didn't want him to do something that would make him regret later. He can't be happy with a paralyzed partner like me. As I said before he is better off without me... Everything is better this way. Just perfect.
Junsu : But hyung?!
Jaejoong : Can we not have this discussion again Junsu? You know I'll never change my mind. So stop trying. I'll really appreciate the fact that you love me so much and worry about me. I really do. But stop... or let me live by myself or something.
Junsu : NO WAYYYY... Neither me nor Yunho will allow you to live alone. And isn't it better you are living in the same place as your therapist. It makes life easier. Don't you think?
Jaejoong : Easier my foot... All Yunho does is torture me the whole day to move my hands and legs... Blehh.
Junsu : Well... You can at least walk now because of his torture and you know you love him.
Jaejoong : Oh yes I do my dear brother. ARen't you scared? or jealous? What if I plan to run away with your lovely boyfriend?
Junsu : Well you can't... You can't run remember?
Jaejoong : Uh-oh... Bad idea... But still you still have your other boyfriend.
Junsu : FOR THE LAST TIME HYUNG... CHUNNIE IS NOT MY BOYFRIEND. Jeezzz... His wife will kill you if she heard this you know.
Jaejoong : *giggles and then ruffles Junsu's hair* Now goo... You're late already. Don't worry about me ok? I'll be fine.
Junsu : Promise?
Jaejoong : Pinky promise.
Junsu : Okay then... *stands up* I'll try and come as soon as possible ok?
Jaejoong : You won't do anything like that. You'll go there and have fun till the party ends ok? I'll call you if I need you. *smiles*
Junsu : *sighs* Ok fine. But don't forget to take your pills and don't you dare forget doing your exercises before bed ok?
Jaejoong : Ok sir. I won't...
Junsu : Goodnight Hyung!
Jaejoong : Goodnight! Have fun.
Junsu : Bye! See you. *leaves the hotel room*
Part 3