Mmmmm breaks and friends
Soooo, spring break is finally here. I have been looking forward to this for a while, but now I just feel bored. You get used to being busy and then you have all this free time, and I don't know, something just feels off. I feel like I should be doing all this work, and I do have homework, but I just can't do it right now. Maybe I'm just whining. I decided tomorrow is a day for baking, move over Betty. I want to try out the mixer I got for Christmas. I have yet to use it. Cookie time!!!!
I never update anymore, though a lot has been going on. Everyone is changing. It's this palpitatable (is that even a word?) kind of vibe. All the time. We seem so different; we all have seperate schedules, goals, committments, and problems. All of us are worrying about different things and dealing with unique issues. I never knew I could change this much, feel this much, be pulled in so many directions at once. When I look into my friends' faces, I no longer see girls with crushes and homework, I guess I see people trying to figure everything out and balance the heavy, fast approaching world on their shoulders. It feels like a long, long journey has taken place. We drifted so far apart, but then we are back where we started all over again. Very strange. It's like friend deja vu.
I turned 21 this week. I always imagined what it would feel like to be old, and now it's coming (though I know it's not really old) and it feels like I have more time to go before the real 21. But I am here. You can't stop time. I had the most fantastic time with Age, Elle, and Kae, when they took me to Little Italy and I had a huge delicious dinner and some chianti.......magical. Seriously. I felt so full of love and life and marinara. Driving home in the car, I contemplated how lucky I really am and how much I value them in my life. Nothing could make me happier. Thank you again, so much. Amacci's forever! You girls are really priceless to me.
No matter how much time passes or where we go in life, I love you so, so much and I will never forget the things we did together or the way you sexually harrassed me.
I have kept a long, detailed record.
Hope everyone's break is going quite deliciously. Love, Jae
I never update anymore, though a lot has been going on. Everyone is changing. It's this palpitatable (is that even a word?) kind of vibe. All the time. We seem so different; we all have seperate schedules, goals, committments, and problems. All of us are worrying about different things and dealing with unique issues. I never knew I could change this much, feel this much, be pulled in so many directions at once. When I look into my friends' faces, I no longer see girls with crushes and homework, I guess I see people trying to figure everything out and balance the heavy, fast approaching world on their shoulders. It feels like a long, long journey has taken place. We drifted so far apart, but then we are back where we started all over again. Very strange. It's like friend deja vu.
I turned 21 this week. I always imagined what it would feel like to be old, and now it's coming (though I know it's not really old) and it feels like I have more time to go before the real 21. But I am here. You can't stop time. I had the most fantastic time with Age, Elle, and Kae, when they took me to Little Italy and I had a huge delicious dinner and some chianti.......magical. Seriously. I felt so full of love and life and marinara. Driving home in the car, I contemplated how lucky I really am and how much I value them in my life. Nothing could make me happier. Thank you again, so much. Amacci's forever! You girls are really priceless to me.
No matter how much time passes or where we go in life, I love you so, so much and I will never forget the things we did together or the way you sexually harrassed me.
I have kept a long, detailed record.
Hope everyone's break is going quite deliciously. Love, Jae