Looking back...
Tonight I find myself caught in the realization that if I actually look at life and all the things in it, I feel no sense of lack or emptiness. I have so many more material things than I did four years ago, but it has never held a candle to the peace and contentment I had when my mom and I were barely surviving off of ramen noodles and the cheapest things on the fast food menu. The only things of worth to me back then were my CD player, my journal, and my loved ones, but I could see so much more clearly than I have the past few years.
I saw a picture that brought me back to those memories and it occurred to me how many things I take for granted;because there was a time when I didn't have a bed, couldn't eat the food of my choice, and any material thing I liked was just something to add to the wishlist of things I could think about but never possess. Now I really do have everything a girl my age could ask for, and I have been too distracted by my so-called "lacks" to even appreciate them.
I know this entry might sound stupid or cliche, but I hope that those of you who are doing more than just surviving really appreciate all that you have. Being able to go out and buy something you want rather than only what you need is truly a luxury that many people don't have and something I think we all take for granted sometimes.
I love and appreciate every person who has come into my life-whether we still talk or not, whether you like me or not, it doesn't matter. You have all made my life what it is and will always be grateful for the beauty you brought to it...and I do truly mean that from the bottom of my heart.
<3
I saw a picture that brought me back to those memories and it occurred to me how many things I take for granted;because there was a time when I didn't have a bed, couldn't eat the food of my choice, and any material thing I liked was just something to add to the wishlist of things I could think about but never possess. Now I really do have everything a girl my age could ask for, and I have been too distracted by my so-called "lacks" to even appreciate them.
I know this entry might sound stupid or cliche, but I hope that those of you who are doing more than just surviving really appreciate all that you have. Being able to go out and buy something you want rather than only what you need is truly a luxury that many people don't have and something I think we all take for granted sometimes.
I love and appreciate every person who has come into my life-whether we still talk or not, whether you like me or not, it doesn't matter. You have all made my life what it is and will always be grateful for the beauty you brought to it...and I do truly mean that from the bottom of my heart.
<3