Ramblings
Binge watching Arashi and HSJ again after leaving them for almost 3 years now makes me feel so sad & nostalgic. Back then, everything was just like a breeze. Memories were made easily. No pressure. No worries. Friends stay until now. Arashi & HSJ helped me a lot. Going through everything with them, life felt so meaningful and so important. Their songs shaped how I looked at life. How I went through life. How I grew up. How this world is beautiful and people are trying to leave something that they can be proud of one day. Something that they can call "Yes, that's me. That's my dream."
But now. Now is different. Being an adult is confusing for me. Pursuing my study after 3 years. No more Arashi & HSJ because "You need to grow up and stop dreaming now!". Became a teacher for 3 years, I lost my way in life. There's no space for songs anymore because that's not real. Life is real. Making me more depressed day by day.
So I turn back to Arashi & HSJ. Just to keep me living for another day. Just to hold on to that hope that dreams do come true. "Life" is just another way of saying "rules". "You can't do that in your life", "You won't achieve that", etc. All because we are playing by the rules of life. Nothing is meaningful anymore. As long as you have money, you don't need dreams.
I want to go back in time where dreams do come true with just songs. Why? Because I dreamt of unimaginable things through their songs. I dreamt that I can achieve anything and do everything.
"Weeek" gave me strength to face the coming days.
"Yuuki 100%" gave me strength to be brave.
"Sakura Sake" gave me strength to go forward.
"Dash" gave me strength to spread my wings and fly.
"Still" gave me strength and hope that "goodbyes" are not the end because there's still "someday"
"Your seed" gave strength to continue my story
Now, you see why I can't stop dreaming? Why I can't stop going back to Arashi and HSJ?
It's because they give me the real meaning of "life".
But now. Now is different. Being an adult is confusing for me. Pursuing my study after 3 years. No more Arashi & HSJ because "You need to grow up and stop dreaming now!". Became a teacher for 3 years, I lost my way in life. There's no space for songs anymore because that's not real. Life is real. Making me more depressed day by day.
So I turn back to Arashi & HSJ. Just to keep me living for another day. Just to hold on to that hope that dreams do come true. "Life" is just another way of saying "rules". "You can't do that in your life", "You won't achieve that", etc. All because we are playing by the rules of life. Nothing is meaningful anymore. As long as you have money, you don't need dreams.
I want to go back in time where dreams do come true with just songs. Why? Because I dreamt of unimaginable things through their songs. I dreamt that I can achieve anything and do everything.
"Weeek" gave me strength to face the coming days.
"Yuuki 100%" gave me strength to be brave.
"Sakura Sake" gave me strength to go forward.
"Dash" gave me strength to spread my wings and fly.
"Still" gave me strength and hope that "goodbyes" are not the end because there's still "someday"
"Your seed" gave strength to continue my story
Now, you see why I can't stop dreaming? Why I can't stop going back to Arashi and HSJ?
It's because they give me the real meaning of "life".