Letters to Junsu
Title: Letters to Junsu
Pairing: JaeChun
Rating: Pg-13
Length: Oneshot (first in the Letters series)
Genre: Fluff, Romance, Humor
Summary: Jaejoong and Yoochun's misadventures in the army, as told to Junsu.
A/N: Like so many of my fics, this one is the result of, and partially written during, the crazy conversations that Nicky and I have on a daily basis. There will be three more parts to this series, but each one will be a stand alone oneshot.
My dearest dongsaeng Jjunggyu,
Junsu-yah! How are you? Have you settled into soldier life yet? It’s been a week since you started training, so time must be flying by now! I heard that you got a 22 out of 24 on your shooting exercise. That’s so great. Just remember that hyung got a 24 out of 24. Not showing off or anything, I just wanted you to know for the sake of your military history education. They take that very seriously here.
Remember Hyunwoo hyung? The soldier from the 2nd unit that they always get to perform with me? I think you met him when you came to visit last fall. Well we had a performance in Seoul last week so we went to visit Yoochun after it was done. They switched him over and now have him doing security work in Songpa, near LOTTE World. Our Yoochun as a security guard! I still can’t really believe it. Let’s just hope that North Korea doesn’t decide to attack LOTTE World because I don’t really know if I trust Yoochunnie with a gun.
(don’t tell him I said that, okay?)
Anyways, there are a lot of really nice people working in Yoochun’s office. A lot of really nice noonas. There is this one really nice noona who has a really nice name: Haneul. That’s a nice name, right Junsu-yah? Yoo Haneul. A great name. She seems like a great noona too. Yoochun told me that they’re good friends and they sometimes go out for drinks after work is done. Just them, drinking and talking and laughing. It’s so nice that Yoochun found a great friend in his new station. Isn’t it SO NICE, Junsu-yah?
I hope you find a friend that’s just as nice and great in your unit.
Love,
Jaejoong, your most favorite hyung in the world.
Dear dear dear dear Juunshyu,
I’ve decided that you are going to be the only dongsaeng that I write to. Even though you didn’t respond to my last letter. But you must be busy with your new unit, huh? Sorry hyung wasn’t able to make your graduation ceremony, they had me and Hyunwoo hyung up near the border singing at this unity concert thing. I think by the time I get out of the army, we’ll have been in more musicals than you! Haha
I got a 10 minute phone call yesterday because I peeled my potatoes the fastest and I decided to call Yoochunnie because I haven’t heard from him in a while. I started telling him about the performance and how Hyunwoo hyung thought he saw the ghost of Kim Jung Il in the audience, but then Yoochun suddenly said that he was about to go out with Haneul and some other coworkers so he couldn’t talk for long.
They seem to go out a lot, huh? Do you think that’s okay? To go out this much? I mean, who is going to guard the streets near LOTTE World if everyone in their office goes out so much? Do you think this should be reported? I mean…it’s an issue of national security, right? I wonder what Haneul even does in the office for her to be going out this much….
Isn’t it so curious, Junsu?
Life is just full of mysteries.
How.curious.
Anyways, I have to go for weeding duties now. They have us weed so much. Maybe they think if the North Koreans decides to invade us, they’ll be so impressed with our weedless yards that they’ll just pack up and go back home.
Write back to me unlike that bastard who’s too busy with Yoo Haneul to talk to me our Yoochunnie.
Love,
The best hyung: Weeding Jaejoong!
Dear Jjunjjang,
So it’s not like I don’t approve of Yoochun and Haneul. I mean, they’re both in their 30s so they can do whatever they want. They’re adults. Two adults doing adult things and…
Do you think they’re doing adult things?
They can’t do adult things! There has to be some sort of army rule about that. Wait a second, I’m going to ask Hyunwoo hyung to check it out real quick. He can read realllllly fast. I tried to take a video of him reading for Instagram but then I remembered I didn’t have a phone.
I miss my phone. And Instagram.
And Yoochun.
You don’t think he’s actually dating Haneul, do you? He wouldn’t do that without telling me. I think. I don’t know. I feel like I barely even know what’s going on with him anymore, Su. It’s just….really strange. I mean, we spent half the past decade basically living in the same room and even in the past few years, we would at least be able to message each other every day. Being in the army is strange.
When I’m in my unit, I’m in a room with 20 other guys and when I’m traveling to perform I’m in a room with Hyunwoo hyung, but even then I still really miss you. And Yoochun.
I guess I just don’t want to be replaced. But Yoochun won’t be able to do that.
Right?
Write back to me soon!
Love,
The Jaejoong who is currently looking through the army handbooks!
Dear Junsuyahhh,
So I called Yoochun yesterday and told him that I had Hyunwoo hyung look through the military protocol books and we found that dating co-workers in the same branch of the military was strictly forbidden.
He told me that was very interesting and then asked why I had hyung to look that up.
He sounded really angry.
Maybe he does want to date Haneul after all.
Love,
Jaejoong
Susususu,
Yoo Haneul.
Yoo: Yoochun fell in love with a pretty noona
Han: Hangovers every morning, this is my life
Eul: Eulogies should be prepared in my name
Love,
The drunken hyung, Jaejoong
My only dongsaeng Jungyu,
I think I got into a fight with Yoochun today.
Yes
You did read that right. A fight. Yoochun and I…fighting. This is what it’s come down to.
I tried to be okay with Haneul, Su. I really, really did. Because you know Yoochun has dated before and so have I and it’s been fine because nothing was ever that serious and I was there to see what was going on. But Haneul is different. I can feel it. Every time I call him, he talks about her and how she’s great at drinking and how he feels like he can tell her everything. He’s even been over to her house! I don’t really know how to be okay with this.
But I did try, you know. Yesterday I sent him and Haneul tickets to the show that Hyunwoo hyung and I are doing for the Seoul Independence Day festival.
So then he called and asked me if I was trying to “rub it in his face”
????? Rub what in his face?
I just told him that I’m trying to be okay with the fact that there’s dating that happens in the army and that it’s totally normal and maybe it’s for the best.
I didn’t even mention Haneul’s name but he still got mad and me and just hung up the phone. He must really, really like her, huh?
I don’t think I can be okay with this, Su. She’s drinking with him and he’s having deep conversations with her and….that's always been me, you know? I don’t know how to be okay with him replacing me while I’m away. I guess I didn’t realize I was this replaceable.
Maybe us not talking will be a good thing. I have a lot to think about.
Love,
A melancholy Jaejoong
Junsu,
I really, really miss him.
This hurts. Why does it hurt so much?
Jaejoong
To my dear lovely Junnsyu,
Yoochun and Haneul actually came to the Seoul Independence Day Festival. Even though I didn’t think he would come, I was hoping for it. Because I don’t like fighting with him at all and I just wanted to make everything right between us again.
The organizers let Hyunwoo hyung and I pick the song to sing so we chose Chajatta. You probably already know since they’ve been broadcasting the performance on the military station a lot since then. I think they didn’t expect the amount of fan traffic that it got, but it’s a JYJ song so of course there will be a lot of fan traffic!
I picked the song for Yoochun. You probably already realized that too. I thought maybe it could help Yoochunnie remember me. Not that he’s forgotten me or anything, but sometimes it feels like he doesn’t remember the place that I had in his life and that’s not fair at all because I’ve been there forever.
Now that I’m writing it out, it doesn’t really make any sense. But, either way, I thought Chajatta would be a good choice.
I guess I was wrong because he stormed out before I even got a chance to talk to him. He looked really hurt before he left, though, and I don’t even know what to do anymore.
Haneul stayed behind to great us. She really is so pretty, Su. And nice. She’s perfect-so perfect for Yoochun that it makes me hurt inside. I don’t know why.
She apologized for Yoochun leaving and said that it’s going to take him some time to be okay with this. When I asked her what he had to become okay with, she just kind of waved her hand at me and Hyunwoo hyung and gave me this look like I should know what she’s talking about.
But that look doesn’t work with anybody besides Yoochun.
Yoochun…..
I really don’t know what to do with him anymore, Su. I just…
I don’t know.
Jaejoong
My Junsu,
So I’ve been thinking about it a lot. Not like I had much else to do besides think, because I’ve been on clean up duty so it’s easier to think about anything other than the gross stuff we have to clean up.
And….
I’m not okay with Yoochun dating Haneul.
I’m not okay with Yoochun dating anyone.
I’m not okay with Yoochun dating anyone besides well…you know…
Me.
I know you’re probably shocked by this. Well, maybe you’re not. I don’t know. I told Hyunwoo hyung this when I figured it out (don’t worry! I trust him a lot!) and he just rolled his eyes and said “well, of course”. So apparently even he realized it.
Which is weird because I’ve never dated a guy before. You know all my past exes anyways so I don’t have to explain that to you. And I didn’t think I’d ever be attracted to a guy either.
But Yoochun is different, I guess. He’s….well he’s like another half of me and I’ve always kind of been in love with myself so I guess this actually does make sense now that I think about it.
Yoochun has just always been there and I took that for granted and didn’t really think about what I stood to lose until someone on the outside took him away. It just feels so terrible having him be with someone and not knowing anything about it. How far has their relationship progressed? What’s she like to him? What’s she like when they’re hanging out, just the two of them?
….This isn’t going to end well for me though because Yoochun IS dating Haneul and he’s definitely not dating me and he’s never going to be dating me so I’m just going to spend the rest of my time here getting prepared for the future heartbreak of Yoochun and Haneul’s marriage and kids and happy family life.
It’s not like I can offer him any of those things. And he deserves all of those things.
So I’ve just….got to learn to be okay with it.
Slowly.
Love,
Jaejoong who’s love life is a failure
Junsu,
Yoochun called and asked to meet up with me on my free weekend in two weeks. I don’t know what to expect. He can’t be engaged already, can he?
Jaejoong
Junsu,
Three days until I meet up with Yoochun. Why do I feel this nervous? Aish, it’s like I’m a high schooler with a crush on the kingka. Not that any of us really know what it’s like to be a normal high school student, but at least what it seems like from the manhwas we read.
Well no matter what happens between us, we’ve still got JYJ right? And we’ve still got you and I know you won’t let the two of us roam too far apart.
Pray for me!
Your hyung forever and ever, Jaejoong.
My dearest, cutest, perfect little precious baby dongsaeng JJunsshyu
My little Junsu-yahhhh. Hyung loves you and hyung loves the army and hyung loves winter and the snow and trees and sunshine and the whole wide world. And Yoochun. Hyung really, really loves Yoochun.
And guess what?
Did you guess?
I’ll give you a hint.
Yoochun……
Loves
…………
Me!!!!
Well, I’ll start from the beginning of it all. I took the military bus into Seoul on Friday. Hyunwoo hyung came with me because he wanted to go and visit his girlfriend who is studying at Yonsei (she’s really smart, that one).
I was expecting to have to go to Yoochun’s house, but he was actually there at the bus stop waiting for me! And it was so cold outside too so I was pretty surprised because you know how he gets when it’s cold outside. Luckily flip flops are not part of the regulation military uniform.
Anyways, so he sees Hyunwoo hyung and I get off the bus and starts to look really sad and angry all over again so I was mentally preparing myself for another fight. Hyung asked me if I wanted him to stay (he’s such a good hyung! Am I a good hyung to you too, Junsu? Do you tell the other people in your unit about how good of a hyung I am??). But back to the story, I told hyung he could leave since I know his girlfriend was probably waiting for him too.
Yoochun told me that he brought his car over and asked if I wanted to take a drive. He brought the white Rolls! You know, the one that you said was our couple car.
So we went driving: even though it was in the middle of a snowstorm and I was kind of afraid that he would crash since that car doesn’t exactly have the best handling in the world. And just as I was sure we were just about to hydroplane across the road, he suddenly went ‘I’m happy for you hyung’
And I was happy for me too since I was still alive, but beyond that my life has kind of been sucking lately so I just said ‘well at least one of us is’.
And then he looked all sad again and told me that he wouldn’t keep me for long since Hyunwoo was probably waiting for me.
But why in the world would Hyunwoo be waiting for me in the middle of a snowstorm? So I asked him that.
And then he said…..
‘Well because, you know, you two are…dating?’
DATING?
Me and Hyunwoo hyung? Dating?
Can you think of anything crazier than that? I mean, do I look like some 22 year old girl going to Yonsei? (Please don’t answer that! Though I do think I look 22, actually. Don’t you think hyung looks like he’s 22?).
Anyways, me dating Hyunwoo! That guy clips his toenails on the bed and didn’t enter the army until he was 30 because he kept breaking the SAME leg like every other year for totally stupid reasons.
So I just started laughing and Yoochun looked so confused. I told him that just because he’s dating Haneul doesn’t mean that everyone else in the army was dating as well.
And then it was his turn to start laughing. He asked me why in the world I thought he was dating Haneul. So I told him everything, especially about how I felt like he was replacing me. And he asked me if that wasn’t what I was doing with Hyunwoo.
I hadn't thought about it like that. I’ve never sung in a duo before this much with anybody but Yoochun during Colors. And Colors was a really….well let’s just say it was a good time for us. So I guess I can see why he would think I was replacing him too.
Then he told me never to date Hyunwoo.
And I told him to never date Haneul.
And he told me to never date anyone.
And I told him to never date anyone but me.
…….
And he said there’s no way he ever would.
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Can you tell I'm excited? I am so excited
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Love,
Your very very happy very much in love hyung, Jaejoong!
~~~***~~~
Junsu got off the bus in Seoul only to find Jaejoong and Yoochun waiting for him-their shaved heads hidden beneath matching beanies, sharing a scarf, Yoochun’s left hand in the pocket of Jaejoong’s jeans like it was the most normal thing in the world.
Junsu heaved his bag over his shoulder and gave the two of them a very unimpressed look.
“So when did this happen?” he asked, motioning to the front of their shirts, where bits of obviously matching chain necklaces peaked out.
“Last month!” Jaejoong said, feeling offended. “Did you not read any of the letters I sent you? Actually…now that I think about it, you never wrote me back! What kind of dongsaeng are you?”
“Huh?” Junsu asked, confused. “What letters? I didn’t get anything from you.”
Jaejoong scowled “I sent you so many letters!”
“Did you put his address on there?” Yoochun asked helpfully. Jaejoong threw him a withering gaze.
“Don’t act like I’m the stupid one in this relationship, Park Yoochun. And of course I did. Kim Junsu, 3rd Infantry Unit”
“Um….hyung…”
“Are you saying that I’m the stupid one in the relationship then?”
“Well you did think I was dating a guy”
“You’re dating a guy now! It wasn’t that much of a stretch”
“Hyung…”
“You know you’re different, Yoochunnie. I wouldn’t date any other guy but you”
“Well you’re not allowed to date any other person but me, so that’s good.”
“Jaejoong hyung!” Junsu shouted, finally getting the attention of the two men in front of him. Jaejoong turned to him with one eyebrow raised. “Did you say that you sent your letters to the 3rd infantry unit?”
“Yeah” Jaejoong answered easily.
“I’m in the 27th unit, hyung…”
Jaejoong’s whole face turned a bright shade of red. “Oh…”
“Before I enlisted, you would send me weekly updates of Yoochun’s exact coordinates but you couldn’t even remember what unit I’m in?!?!”
“You didn’t write anything embarrassing in your letters, did you?” Yoochun asked the man next to him.
Jaejoong stared resolutely at the ground. “Nope, nothing embarrassing at all….”
~~~~****~~~
3rd Infantry Unit, Barracks of First Class Private Kim Junsu
“And it turns out that Y actually thought J was dating HyunWoo all along!”
“What a plot twist!” one of the privates said as they all lounged on their beds after a day of shooting practice. “And Y actually wasn’t dating Haneul either?”
“Nope”
“Yo, Junsu, you’re going to school to become a scriptwriter, right? This story should totally be the first drama you write”
“Yeah, you’ll have to give your characters actual names though. I don’t think J and Y would fly as character names”
And First Class Private Kim Junsu-a small town boy from Yeongnam-thought that yeah, maybe he would do that. At the very least, he knew exactly who to cast as the two main leads….
Pairing: JaeChun
Rating: Pg-13
Length: Oneshot (first in the Letters series)
Genre: Fluff, Romance, Humor
Summary: Jaejoong and Yoochun's misadventures in the army, as told to Junsu.
A/N: Like so many of my fics, this one is the result of, and partially written during, the crazy conversations that Nicky and I have on a daily basis. There will be three more parts to this series, but each one will be a stand alone oneshot.
My dearest dongsaeng Jjunggyu,
Junsu-yah! How are you? Have you settled into soldier life yet? It’s been a week since you started training, so time must be flying by now! I heard that you got a 22 out of 24 on your shooting exercise. That’s so great. Just remember that hyung got a 24 out of 24. Not showing off or anything, I just wanted you to know for the sake of your military history education. They take that very seriously here.
Remember Hyunwoo hyung? The soldier from the 2nd unit that they always get to perform with me? I think you met him when you came to visit last fall. Well we had a performance in Seoul last week so we went to visit Yoochun after it was done. They switched him over and now have him doing security work in Songpa, near LOTTE World. Our Yoochun as a security guard! I still can’t really believe it. Let’s just hope that North Korea doesn’t decide to attack LOTTE World because I don’t really know if I trust Yoochunnie with a gun.
(don’t tell him I said that, okay?)
Anyways, there are a lot of really nice people working in Yoochun’s office. A lot of really nice noonas. There is this one really nice noona who has a really nice name: Haneul. That’s a nice name, right Junsu-yah? Yoo Haneul. A great name. She seems like a great noona too. Yoochun told me that they’re good friends and they sometimes go out for drinks after work is done. Just them, drinking and talking and laughing. It’s so nice that Yoochun found a great friend in his new station. Isn’t it SO NICE, Junsu-yah?
I hope you find a friend that’s just as nice and great in your unit.
Love,
Jaejoong, your most favorite hyung in the world.
Dear dear dear dear Juunshyu,
I’ve decided that you are going to be the only dongsaeng that I write to. Even though you didn’t respond to my last letter. But you must be busy with your new unit, huh? Sorry hyung wasn’t able to make your graduation ceremony, they had me and Hyunwoo hyung up near the border singing at this unity concert thing. I think by the time I get out of the army, we’ll have been in more musicals than you! Haha
I got a 10 minute phone call yesterday because I peeled my potatoes the fastest and I decided to call Yoochunnie because I haven’t heard from him in a while. I started telling him about the performance and how Hyunwoo hyung thought he saw the ghost of Kim Jung Il in the audience, but then Yoochun suddenly said that he was about to go out with Haneul and some other coworkers so he couldn’t talk for long.
They seem to go out a lot, huh? Do you think that’s okay? To go out this much? I mean, who is going to guard the streets near LOTTE World if everyone in their office goes out so much? Do you think this should be reported? I mean…it’s an issue of national security, right? I wonder what Haneul even does in the office for her to be going out this much….
Isn’t it so curious, Junsu?
Life is just full of mysteries.
How.curious.
Anyways, I have to go for weeding duties now. They have us weed so much. Maybe they think if the North Koreans decides to invade us, they’ll be so impressed with our weedless yards that they’ll just pack up and go back home.
Write back to me unlike that bastard who’s too busy with Yoo Haneul to talk to me our Yoochunnie.
Love,
The best hyung: Weeding Jaejoong!
Dear Jjunjjang,
So it’s not like I don’t approve of Yoochun and Haneul. I mean, they’re both in their 30s so they can do whatever they want. They’re adults. Two adults doing adult things and…
Do you think they’re doing adult things?
They can’t do adult things! There has to be some sort of army rule about that. Wait a second, I’m going to ask Hyunwoo hyung to check it out real quick. He can read realllllly fast. I tried to take a video of him reading for Instagram but then I remembered I didn’t have a phone.
I miss my phone. And Instagram.
And Yoochun.
You don’t think he’s actually dating Haneul, do you? He wouldn’t do that without telling me. I think. I don’t know. I feel like I barely even know what’s going on with him anymore, Su. It’s just….really strange. I mean, we spent half the past decade basically living in the same room and even in the past few years, we would at least be able to message each other every day. Being in the army is strange.
When I’m in my unit, I’m in a room with 20 other guys and when I’m traveling to perform I’m in a room with Hyunwoo hyung, but even then I still really miss you. And Yoochun.
I guess I just don’t want to be replaced. But Yoochun won’t be able to do that.
Right?
Write back to me soon!
Love,
The Jaejoong who is currently looking through the army handbooks!
Dear Junsuyahhh,
So I called Yoochun yesterday and told him that I had Hyunwoo hyung look through the military protocol books and we found that dating co-workers in the same branch of the military was strictly forbidden.
He told me that was very interesting and then asked why I had hyung to look that up.
He sounded really angry.
Maybe he does want to date Haneul after all.
Love,
Jaejoong
Susususu,
Yoo Haneul.
Yoo: Yoochun fell in love with a pretty noona
Han: Hangovers every morning, this is my life
Eul: Eulogies should be prepared in my name
Love,
The drunken hyung, Jaejoong
My only dongsaeng Jungyu,
I think I got into a fight with Yoochun today.
Yes
You did read that right. A fight. Yoochun and I…fighting. This is what it’s come down to.
I tried to be okay with Haneul, Su. I really, really did. Because you know Yoochun has dated before and so have I and it’s been fine because nothing was ever that serious and I was there to see what was going on. But Haneul is different. I can feel it. Every time I call him, he talks about her and how she’s great at drinking and how he feels like he can tell her everything. He’s even been over to her house! I don’t really know how to be okay with this.
But I did try, you know. Yesterday I sent him and Haneul tickets to the show that Hyunwoo hyung and I are doing for the Seoul Independence Day festival.
So then he called and asked me if I was trying to “rub it in his face”
????? Rub what in his face?
I just told him that I’m trying to be okay with the fact that there’s dating that happens in the army and that it’s totally normal and maybe it’s for the best.
I didn’t even mention Haneul’s name but he still got mad and me and just hung up the phone. He must really, really like her, huh?
I don’t think I can be okay with this, Su. She’s drinking with him and he’s having deep conversations with her and….that's always been me, you know? I don’t know how to be okay with him replacing me while I’m away. I guess I didn’t realize I was this replaceable.
Maybe us not talking will be a good thing. I have a lot to think about.
Love,
A melancholy Jaejoong
Junsu,
I really, really miss him.
This hurts. Why does it hurt so much?
Jaejoong
To my dear lovely Junnsyu,
Yoochun and Haneul actually came to the Seoul Independence Day Festival. Even though I didn’t think he would come, I was hoping for it. Because I don’t like fighting with him at all and I just wanted to make everything right between us again.
The organizers let Hyunwoo hyung and I pick the song to sing so we chose Chajatta. You probably already know since they’ve been broadcasting the performance on the military station a lot since then. I think they didn’t expect the amount of fan traffic that it got, but it’s a JYJ song so of course there will be a lot of fan traffic!
I picked the song for Yoochun. You probably already realized that too. I thought maybe it could help Yoochunnie remember me. Not that he’s forgotten me or anything, but sometimes it feels like he doesn’t remember the place that I had in his life and that’s not fair at all because I’ve been there forever.
Now that I’m writing it out, it doesn’t really make any sense. But, either way, I thought Chajatta would be a good choice.
I guess I was wrong because he stormed out before I even got a chance to talk to him. He looked really hurt before he left, though, and I don’t even know what to do anymore.
Haneul stayed behind to great us. She really is so pretty, Su. And nice. She’s perfect-so perfect for Yoochun that it makes me hurt inside. I don’t know why.
She apologized for Yoochun leaving and said that it’s going to take him some time to be okay with this. When I asked her what he had to become okay with, she just kind of waved her hand at me and Hyunwoo hyung and gave me this look like I should know what she’s talking about.
But that look doesn’t work with anybody besides Yoochun.
Yoochun…..
I really don’t know what to do with him anymore, Su. I just…
I don’t know.
Jaejoong
My Junsu,
So I’ve been thinking about it a lot. Not like I had much else to do besides think, because I’ve been on clean up duty so it’s easier to think about anything other than the gross stuff we have to clean up.
And….
I’m not okay with Yoochun dating Haneul.
I’m not okay with Yoochun dating anyone.
I’m not okay with Yoochun dating anyone besides well…you know…
Me.
I know you’re probably shocked by this. Well, maybe you’re not. I don’t know. I told Hyunwoo hyung this when I figured it out (don’t worry! I trust him a lot!) and he just rolled his eyes and said “well, of course”. So apparently even he realized it.
Which is weird because I’ve never dated a guy before. You know all my past exes anyways so I don’t have to explain that to you. And I didn’t think I’d ever be attracted to a guy either.
But Yoochun is different, I guess. He’s….well he’s like another half of me and I’ve always kind of been in love with myself so I guess this actually does make sense now that I think about it.
Yoochun has just always been there and I took that for granted and didn’t really think about what I stood to lose until someone on the outside took him away. It just feels so terrible having him be with someone and not knowing anything about it. How far has their relationship progressed? What’s she like to him? What’s she like when they’re hanging out, just the two of them?
….This isn’t going to end well for me though because Yoochun IS dating Haneul and he’s definitely not dating me and he’s never going to be dating me so I’m just going to spend the rest of my time here getting prepared for the future heartbreak of Yoochun and Haneul’s marriage and kids and happy family life.
It’s not like I can offer him any of those things. And he deserves all of those things.
So I’ve just….got to learn to be okay with it.
Slowly.
Love,
Jaejoong who’s love life is a failure
Junsu,
Yoochun called and asked to meet up with me on my free weekend in two weeks. I don’t know what to expect. He can’t be engaged already, can he?
Jaejoong
Junsu,
Three days until I meet up with Yoochun. Why do I feel this nervous? Aish, it’s like I’m a high schooler with a crush on the kingka. Not that any of us really know what it’s like to be a normal high school student, but at least what it seems like from the manhwas we read.
Well no matter what happens between us, we’ve still got JYJ right? And we’ve still got you and I know you won’t let the two of us roam too far apart.
Pray for me!
Your hyung forever and ever, Jaejoong.
My dearest, cutest, perfect little precious baby dongsaeng JJunsshyu
My little Junsu-yahhhh. Hyung loves you and hyung loves the army and hyung loves winter and the snow and trees and sunshine and the whole wide world. And Yoochun. Hyung really, really loves Yoochun.
And guess what?
Did you guess?
I’ll give you a hint.
Yoochun……
Loves
…………
Me!!!!
Well, I’ll start from the beginning of it all. I took the military bus into Seoul on Friday. Hyunwoo hyung came with me because he wanted to go and visit his girlfriend who is studying at Yonsei (she’s really smart, that one).
I was expecting to have to go to Yoochun’s house, but he was actually there at the bus stop waiting for me! And it was so cold outside too so I was pretty surprised because you know how he gets when it’s cold outside. Luckily flip flops are not part of the regulation military uniform.
Anyways, so he sees Hyunwoo hyung and I get off the bus and starts to look really sad and angry all over again so I was mentally preparing myself for another fight. Hyung asked me if I wanted him to stay (he’s such a good hyung! Am I a good hyung to you too, Junsu? Do you tell the other people in your unit about how good of a hyung I am??). But back to the story, I told hyung he could leave since I know his girlfriend was probably waiting for him too.
Yoochun told me that he brought his car over and asked if I wanted to take a drive. He brought the white Rolls! You know, the one that you said was our couple car.
So we went driving: even though it was in the middle of a snowstorm and I was kind of afraid that he would crash since that car doesn’t exactly have the best handling in the world. And just as I was sure we were just about to hydroplane across the road, he suddenly went ‘I’m happy for you hyung’
And I was happy for me too since I was still alive, but beyond that my life has kind of been sucking lately so I just said ‘well at least one of us is’.
And then he looked all sad again and told me that he wouldn’t keep me for long since Hyunwoo was probably waiting for me.
But why in the world would Hyunwoo be waiting for me in the middle of a snowstorm? So I asked him that.
And then he said…..
‘Well because, you know, you two are…dating?’
DATING?
Me and Hyunwoo hyung? Dating?
Can you think of anything crazier than that? I mean, do I look like some 22 year old girl going to Yonsei? (Please don’t answer that! Though I do think I look 22, actually. Don’t you think hyung looks like he’s 22?).
Anyways, me dating Hyunwoo! That guy clips his toenails on the bed and didn’t enter the army until he was 30 because he kept breaking the SAME leg like every other year for totally stupid reasons.
So I just started laughing and Yoochun looked so confused. I told him that just because he’s dating Haneul doesn’t mean that everyone else in the army was dating as well.
And then it was his turn to start laughing. He asked me why in the world I thought he was dating Haneul. So I told him everything, especially about how I felt like he was replacing me. And he asked me if that wasn’t what I was doing with Hyunwoo.
I hadn't thought about it like that. I’ve never sung in a duo before this much with anybody but Yoochun during Colors. And Colors was a really….well let’s just say it was a good time for us. So I guess I can see why he would think I was replacing him too.
Then he told me never to date Hyunwoo.
And I told him to never date Haneul.
And he told me to never date anyone.
And I told him to never date anyone but me.
…….
And he said there’s no way he ever would.
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Can you tell I'm excited? I am so excited
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Love,
Your very very happy very much in love hyung, Jaejoong!
~~~***~~~
Junsu got off the bus in Seoul only to find Jaejoong and Yoochun waiting for him-their shaved heads hidden beneath matching beanies, sharing a scarf, Yoochun’s left hand in the pocket of Jaejoong’s jeans like it was the most normal thing in the world.
Junsu heaved his bag over his shoulder and gave the two of them a very unimpressed look.
“So when did this happen?” he asked, motioning to the front of their shirts, where bits of obviously matching chain necklaces peaked out.
“Last month!” Jaejoong said, feeling offended. “Did you not read any of the letters I sent you? Actually…now that I think about it, you never wrote me back! What kind of dongsaeng are you?”
“Huh?” Junsu asked, confused. “What letters? I didn’t get anything from you.”
Jaejoong scowled “I sent you so many letters!”
“Did you put his address on there?” Yoochun asked helpfully. Jaejoong threw him a withering gaze.
“Don’t act like I’m the stupid one in this relationship, Park Yoochun. And of course I did. Kim Junsu, 3rd Infantry Unit”
“Um….hyung…”
“Are you saying that I’m the stupid one in the relationship then?”
“Well you did think I was dating a guy”
“You’re dating a guy now! It wasn’t that much of a stretch”
“Hyung…”
“You know you’re different, Yoochunnie. I wouldn’t date any other guy but you”
“Well you’re not allowed to date any other person but me, so that’s good.”
“Jaejoong hyung!” Junsu shouted, finally getting the attention of the two men in front of him. Jaejoong turned to him with one eyebrow raised. “Did you say that you sent your letters to the 3rd infantry unit?”
“Yeah” Jaejoong answered easily.
“I’m in the 27th unit, hyung…”
Jaejoong’s whole face turned a bright shade of red. “Oh…”
“Before I enlisted, you would send me weekly updates of Yoochun’s exact coordinates but you couldn’t even remember what unit I’m in?!?!”
“You didn’t write anything embarrassing in your letters, did you?” Yoochun asked the man next to him.
Jaejoong stared resolutely at the ground. “Nope, nothing embarrassing at all….”
~~~~****~~~
3rd Infantry Unit, Barracks of First Class Private Kim Junsu
“And it turns out that Y actually thought J was dating HyunWoo all along!”
“What a plot twist!” one of the privates said as they all lounged on their beds after a day of shooting practice. “And Y actually wasn’t dating Haneul either?”
“Nope”
“Yo, Junsu, you’re going to school to become a scriptwriter, right? This story should totally be the first drama you write”
“Yeah, you’ll have to give your characters actual names though. I don’t think J and Y would fly as character names”
And First Class Private Kim Junsu-a small town boy from Yeongnam-thought that yeah, maybe he would do that. At the very least, he knew exactly who to cast as the two main leads….