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It is so scary to watch a marriage get so close to disaster. The word divorce has been mentioned too many times this past week. It was mostly just us daring the other to actually go through with it. I know I wouldn't want that but I'm not so sure anymore that he doesn't. I just can't see giving up before really trying. If divorce papers showed up in front of me today I can't honestly say what I would do. I just hate the thought of doing that to my amazing little boy. I think he has been denied a father for too long already, how can I make him spend more time without his daddy. Or what if a judge gave hunter to stephen? What would I do without him? It wouldn't be that far fetched to have him taken away. Stephen has a secure job, I have nothing. Yes I have been with hunter the first year of his life, but can I provide for him on my own? These are just things I never wanted to have to think about. I want to spend the rest of my life with stephen and hunter, but does stephen still want the same thing?