Slowtime Check-In Day 8 of 14 (Friday): Depression Falls

[jadxia]

I've been feeling much better today than yesterday, at least mentally. Physically, I feel awful, sore with achy joints. The depression still lingers, like a cold draft seeping around corners in my mind. It's so hard to stick to schedule, to not be constantly distracted by things. Spent too much time organizing papers; I created a collage of

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I dunno, but I don't think Autistic

[misty_moonlight]

I just got done ordering a bunch of Autism books, - some for the boy to learn emotioal responses and some for Bri and I - seems I'm not the only one that has problems being married to someone that's not capable of seeing me. heh. So, you know, this is just all thrown in my face within the last couple months but one thing i know for certain is that people with Autism spectrum dissorder can easily be confused with people with Narcissm. Very in your own mind and focussed on yourself. From what i've read is very very common. I can't even Bring Brian to meetings at school about the kids because they quickly become about him. It's not because that's what he wants, he's just so stressed about the meeting that he turns inward, and unfortunantly regurgitates

Re: I dunno, but I don't think Autistic

[jadxia]

Well, it wouldn't be full-blown autism, but Asperger's anyway. I was tested for a study on prosopagnosia (face-blindness) because the tools they were looking at for treating face-blindness did not work if you were autistic. (These conditions tend to run in the same family.) I am somewhat faceblind and have visual memory processing problems. I can remember two-dimensional faces, but not faces in 3D. Meaning, if I don't have a picture of someone to pull up in my head and compare them to, I simply have no idea what that person looks like. I even do this for myself

Re: I dunno, but I don't think Autistic

[jadxia]

Oh yes, over time I have gotten better, which can happen in milder cases. As a child I could not wear patterns, did not even like looking at them. They made me itch, they were just so loud I could feel the colors crawling all over me. I still sometimes have issues with bright paisley.

Re: I dunno, but I don't think Autistic

[misty_moonlight]

I think that I do some of those things. I bring fragments of ideas together and somehow try to connect them in a way that people might be able to understand. I've been looking inward to see if I might have it too because my oldest boy has a more severe autism, and he has a different father.

I'm hoping that the therapists can help my husband to work out of a lot of it. He has trouble holding a job, and in every single instance it's because every single person there hates him, and he just doesn't even see that happening. Now he's in college running up a huge college loan bill, and it frightens me. You know? 85% of Autistic Spectrum Dissorder people don't have full time employment. BUT - the best computer engineers are Autistic, and that's where he's going.

One of the books I ordered for my boy is a picture book and you go through it with him and evaluate what kind of social things are happening, and what would be appropriate responses.