This is the moment that you know, that you told her that you loved her, but you don't.......
There are those times when you don'tknow what is up or down....this is one of those times....I don't even know why I had a phone thrown at me tonight.....I dont know why the person that i care most for out of most people I know, hates me. I have not done anything....I danced. Ummm, I danced with my friend Robin. that is a girl. I had a good time, because I love to dance....is that bad???? I am so confused, so completely hurt right now, it is indescribable. I feel like someone just stabbed me in the fucking chest..but with a needle....
I make it a point to *never* show emotion in front of people, and tonight I fucking broke down and cried outside a club. I fucking cried. I have not cried in front of anyone in years. I surpised myself...a day that could have turned out great, has ended up making me feel so confused and so hurt, I want to fucking die........I dunno, maybe things arent so bad to want to die, because things can always change....but seriously, I don't know what I did wrong....and it always seems I get shit on for doing nothing but trying to fuckin love someone.
THis is the shittiest I have felt in a long time. and I hate it. and I dont want sympathy...I just want to say how I feel, cuz obviously the long walk I took tonight wasn't enough...............so no one needs to leave any comments please...because I dont even know what I would have to say back right now......
Just had to let some things out.....sorry....Im so very sorry for everything.....
I make it a point to *never* show emotion in front of people, and tonight I fucking broke down and cried outside a club. I fucking cried. I have not cried in front of anyone in years. I surpised myself...a day that could have turned out great, has ended up making me feel so confused and so hurt, I want to fucking die........I dunno, maybe things arent so bad to want to die, because things can always change....but seriously, I don't know what I did wrong....and it always seems I get shit on for doing nothing but trying to fuckin love someone.
THis is the shittiest I have felt in a long time. and I hate it. and I dont want sympathy...I just want to say how I feel, cuz obviously the long walk I took tonight wasn't enough...............so no one needs to leave any comments please...because I dont even know what I would have to say back right now......
Just had to let some things out.....sorry....Im so very sorry for everything.....