Nov 10, 2008 11:22
As November is goming to it's middle, things are still going well for us. I am getting ready to take a girls vacation, myself, Jenn and Chelsea are all going to Mena, Arkansas for like five days, out in a cabin in the wilderness, among the fall foliage. Its going to be wonderful and beautiful and peaceful. I am going to relax and take lots of pictures and not worry about timelines and getting things done, just being at peace with myself and with nature. I want this to be somewhat of a spiritual journey. I want to get in touch with that part of myself and my beliefs that I have abandoned for so long. I want to just be, to regain some of what I have lost in myself over the last few years, I want to find me again. I hope that this trip will help, I hope that I can come home and be a better wife for Shawn, to make him happier. I want to come home and be ready to take care of him, better than I have in the last year.
Losing my mom took something out of me and I am hoping that this trip will help me find it again or at least touch it, replace it or something. I am tired of hurting all the time, I want to be happy again, I want to not feel the sadness and loss I have, I know it takes time to recover from losing your mother, but I need to be able to function, to have a life again.
Here is hoping that this will help me.