ok for anyone paying attention I'm just gonna explain a few things.
I'm living at my parents and sharing their phoneline, I'm not renting I'm just living here so it's pretty much I'm stuck with certain house rules and issues.
Like I don't get told about plans and things till they happen...I don't get asked... usually, I get told. I got told yesterday that there would be no internet for me till we got word from my grandparents.
My grandfather is ....not well. Currently he's on a ventalator, Fighting to be able to breathe each day, paralised from the waist down,unable to move, they removed large chunks of his intestinal tract, unable to eat, they think his liver maybe failing and his foot seems to have gangrene, Bedridden, his moter-cordination is failing, he can't write...Basically he can barely communicate thru lip reading(we try to read his lips) and He can't move without lots of help...he has no independance.
So not an easy thing...makes me want to slap people who say things like...at least he's alive... Right now the machines won't let him die, they feed him and breathe for him. It's very close to my personal idea of hell.
We just got back from seeing them for the weekend. thusly it was not a vacation. It's really hard on mom. she's a type A and has no control over the situation. and it's her father. She has not been a happy camper.
Yesterday they were operating/amputating his gangrened leg at the knee. Just got word...looks like that went well.
So anyway I think I don't want to think about it...
sorry sorry sorry for disappearing without explainations.
ummm ok I think i'm done
hope I haven't bolixed things too badly