long time no talk
it's been over 2 weeks since i updated this, and after reading lots of entries on my friends pg, i realized i hadnt even been on lj for a while, and i havent even been that busy. i really dont have much to say even, i just thought it looked like time for another entry.
tom night/fri morn i'm leaving for Billings, which is way the hell over there in Montana, for a wedding on Sat. fun fun fun. *raises eyebrow sarcastically* it might turn out to be alright, but ugh, the one fucking time i have a boyfriend that is here during the 4th, i have to be gone. i love setting off fireworks and stuff, and i dont know that i will get to next yr, w/ hopefully being moved out by then and such.
it's so crazy to think about how close i am to real life. in a lot of ways, i'm more than ready, but in a lot of ways, i'm far from ready, but i think i will be by the time i need to be. i cant believe we've been out of school for a full 3 weeks. in a way it seems longer, like i was at school for fucking ever ago, but at the same time, i dont know what the hell i've done the last 3 weeks.
hopefully the next few weeks will be more productive. i'm starting to pull my shit together, but not as well as i should be. i'm too damn lazy for my own good. if i get thinking about all that too much i think i'll start hating myself so i just wont go there.
overall things've been pretty good i guess. i'm excited to go camping next week for a couple days, i love camping and i didnt really get to last summer, other than during the day.
it's really weird but i think i'll be completely lost/friendless when Brendan breaks up w/ me (he's not planning on it, i'm just saying, in general) cuz i've become really distant w/ ppl i used to consider my close friends. other than the occasional little get-togethers i've been invited to these last few weeks, i've hung out w/ Brendan and Martin, and that's about it. there are a few other ppl i seem to stay in touch w/, but we still dont hang out like we used to. in a way i can see how this is good, becuz if i do make too many close friendships, it'll be that much harder to leave, but geez i'll come back to my 5-yr reunion and have no one to talk to. i dont know. i'm weird w/ friendships, and have been for a while. i guess i've kinda gone from guy to guy, and made them my new best friend. 's not really the best way to go about it. *makes a face*
well i guess i dont have much else to say, and i dont have any reason to stay up, so i think i'm gonna go to bed.