*yet another bad day*
well i don't even know why i write in here..anymore its to vent out my feelings..i guess b/c i don't have much of anything going on in my life besides stupid shit..yes i do work and gettin ready to start back to college but ppl make me soo mad..i can't stand guys point blank period..i hate them with a passion..it seems like the more guys i met the more i tend to hate them..its pretty bad..and even when i do met a decent guy its like ah to hell with you cause i don't want shit from them..all it is is a game..every single last bit of it..i don't care if i am single the rest of my life it seems like i am better off that way..yes i get lonely and sometimes feel like i could use someone in my life but then again i go back and think about all of the shitty times i have had and i am like no thank you..i do know i had something good at one time and really fucked that up and now i pay every day of my life..but i guess that is the way life works..but i am doing better about gettin over everything..but i still can't help but love him..its sad but true..even after they sit and tell you one day that you need to get over them blah blah blah..but still you have something there..i guess b/c its my first love..and i guess i will always love them no matter what..but that is my past and i am gonna look forward to what future i will have..i am looking forward to college..i think that will help me out a lot whenever i can go back and just work my ass off to do something with my life besides working at walmart..yes i love working there at times and yes i have made some friends there that i absolutely adore but gosh sometimes i just wanna sit down and cry b/c it can stress me out soo bad..but i guess that job has shown me that i need to do more things with my life than just making 7 bucks an hour..well anyways it felt really good just to write all of this down cause there is a lot of things going through my little brain right now..but good night everyone..
<3 JaDiEe
<3 JaDiEe